Only For A Minute

The best part of my day happened about an hour ago - and it was only a minute. Last night I asked my brother around 1AM if he could drive me to Jacob's place to drop off the 10 or 11 dozen cookies, packaged in a Quaker Oats Variety Pack box, that I made just for him along with the music note bracelet I made. He said no. I tried to make deals with him and bribe him, but it was still a no. He said he would do it tonight. I asked earlier tonight and he said no, so I tried to ask my sister, bribing her as well. No's all across the board, I couldn't do anything about it. Then, my brother says, "Hey Tep, I'll take you to see Jacob if you come with me to Blockbuster." The only distinct thought that ran through my head was "OH-MUH-GAAAAAAAAAAAD. OH-MUH-GAAD!" I was unbelievable happy in that moment and every moment until I got home. Anyways, we drove over there in the midst of the night after finding out that Blockbuster now closes at 11PM and it was already midnight. On quiet Union Ave., I got out of the car and waited at the bottom of the steps, one house down, out of view, box and bracelet in hand. I haw him walking down the step and I began to feel a tingle in my face. Uh, yeah. It's kind of like butterflies in your stomach, but on your face. Don't judge me -_-' I began move frantically in place, as if I were standing on a pile of hot rocks, barefoot. As dark as it was, and as unclear he was to me, I knew well enough this is the person I've missed for 5 whole day. So quickly that I couldn't even pull out a smile first nor say a word, I hugged him tightly. I was so happy and complete, in that moment. We tried to part ways once with a "Goodbye" and "I love you", but I hesitated twice to do so and came back for kisses and hugs. Ah, this is where the significance in my day lays. I

I tried to go out earlier, to Deejay's but the parents said no, and considering how much they've been letting me out lately, I dealt with it. If I don't argue back, they'll keep letting me out :D I ended up cleaning the kitchen a bit and I even got a compliment when Papa came home. Go team. Photo is one of Papa and I which I sent to Jacob as proof I was sitting next to him!

How Do You Think I Feel Today?

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Family

is pretty important and you’re so blessed to have that. I’m not joking. I’m jealous for anyone who has a really close family - it’s pretty vital in life and you shouldn’t really give it up..

so where does that put me?

Any happy mediums available?

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Secret #1

I’ve been feeling pretty lonely lately.

Best friends are now a sort of “close friend” - yes, there is a difference.

And fault is at my hands, as it always had been.

I came home today knowing I have a project, a big one, due tomorrow. Yet, I allowed myself to procrastinate until about 830PM before really beginning. Today in itself was another one of those days where..you look back and you aren't very proud of your self and the choices you made. Photo is of Aud during lunch haha. She stuffed her face with as many marshmallows as she could xD

I Can Do This I Can Do This

Dang! 300th post! I'm seriously getting there! Anyways, onto today. It was good. Nothing is better than starting the week with basically a half-day, considering the delayed-opening for testing. The days tends to go a lot better like this. After today, I can finally breathe a little better. Colorguard auditions were today. I won't say I bust my ass trying to put my piece together, because I really didn't. I was the only one trying out for Captain, but it is still good to give off a nice first impression. All went well for the most part. I got my taste of the summer heat and sweat. I spent my time with you wisely and didn't complain when it was over. I'll take what I can get because everything is much easier without complaining. I'm learning. I say that I can breathe a little better only because it is one less weight off my chest. There is so much more left at the end of the year, so I just hope to get through it all. Photo is of funky hair. lol

I Want to Breathe Already!

I'm really looking forward to the end of this week. By then, I feel like I'll be able to take my first real breath of relief - stress free. It is currently 2:50AM and I just finished my Resume project. (Well, for the most part. I just have the bibliography left) Hrm. Now its 3:17AM and Papa just woke up. We have clashed at this hour too many times that he doesn't even really lecture me about it anymore. We both know its bad, but I'm not really stopping. Today has been not so much stressful, but tiring. I woke up this morning knowing that right after church I would have to make up my captain's audition piece. It was definitely annoying. I kept coming up into mind-blocks doing the same moves. I eventually gave up, only with about 1:20 of work. Haha, fail. The song I chose is too fast, but it's way too late to change it now. I hate staying on the computer so late, just for the fact htat I end up slouching over the computer desk and now my back hurts. I want to sleep already! But leadership forms call to be finished. Photo is of finished project - FINALLY.

I Don't Know, Man.. My Neck Is Feelin' A Little Sore !

I won't say anything. I won't say anything. You are mine and that is all that matters..

Today was fairly interesting due to the fact that I didn't get to school til 8:30AM. Not even down the street or around the corner, but about 100 ft. from School #4, we got into an accident. Some car ran into, more or less, under the bus. On the bus, all we felt was this slight whip-lash that made most of go "wth?" Eventually Stephanie, the bus driver, put the bus in park, and stepped out to deal with the mess. Being in the bus, we didn't really get affected. The car that ran into us, on the the other hand, got messed up! The front bumper was crushed and the hood bent up and in at a 40 degree angle. So there we were, sitting for a good 45 minutes from 7:30AM to almost 8:30AM. I actually made a new friend today in that time. I sat next to Viny, George, and new kid Andy. It was pretty funny because two of us were starving. Viny called his mom to bring him a sandwich, but then we left. hahaha Anyways, it was a nice feeling to finally see you after first period. A hug felt good about then. I need to start accepting that I won't have your shown affection all the time. There are other people in the world who have your friendship, which I understand in my shoes as well. Its just that right now, I feel like when ever we're in the same room, I always want to be with you conversing, laughing, kissing, I don't care. But that's too selfish of me. I remember months ago, when you didn't want to share me with other people. I made bad choices - whatever. Now I feel like I'm in your position, months ago, and your enjoying life as it comes. Well, it's only fair. I'll change.

Mother Nature Sucks

I woke up at 12:30PM today! There is always a sense of slight disgust with myself, but oh well. I feel like when I wake up at any second before 11AM, I still have a morning to spare. But when my groggy eyes fix onto a clock reading 12:30PM or any minute in the eleventh hour, I feel like a morning was wasted. Not much happened today (it's not like my life is exploding with events), but I still have the greatest urge to go to GSP mall! Buddies from the other night actually invited me to go earlier, but because I came home so late, I knew it wasn't happening. Today was also more focused on hustling my ass on all the work I have waiting for me, due Monday. It is a very stressful thing too - waiting for your period. It is more especially irritating when the lame iPod app you downloaded lies to you, saying it was supposed to come 4 days ago. Come on, Mother Nature! Photo is of a spider I killed this morning. -_-'


And here's another photo just for the sake of it's cuteness.

Valentine's Day Is No Different, Really.

IM DONE WITH MY CHEM CHAPTER OUTLINE WOOO! -confetti falls- and well now.. Formspring has been getting interesting today. I've actually been getting some legit questions. I'm happy to get honest with these things. I want to change. This is just a long process. >__> I'm constantly sorry. Valentine's Day was okay.. first year with an actual someone to share it with. All I did was text him but it's okay. I got pissy because the brother came home late for plans to see a movie at 4:40 with me and Lolo. We were stuck in a parking lot and had to get a lter showing at another theatre. We get there and into the theatre.. the lights are already out. I'm sent to get seats when I can't see shet. We get seats and its kinda close. The douches behind us kick the chairs every now and then, esp. my Lolo's chair. I wanted to hook them in the face. Yay V-Day! lol Photo's a secret. :)

A Vacation Doesn't Always Sound So Sweet To Me

Snow days are amazing. It's so great to sleep in and wake up at 11:30AM. The only downside to that situation is waking up to your mother screaming at the TV while watching a game show. I plotted today :) I attempted to do a Chemistry outline, but the glories of YouTube did not allow me to do so. As great as vacations are, any day is only great if I get to see you. Vacations void that. This basically just means a whole week I won't be able to see you :( I don't know how I'm going to live. As soon as I finish this outline I plan on reading up on those books I've been so far from. :) Photo's of failed outine.

Uh..What Time Is It Again?

Blahh I've been working on my hw all night and it's already 4:49AM of Monday. I went shopping today, being the spoiled kid that I am..its Christmas and I should being buying for others and I just got new clothes. xD To be truthful, shopping and getting new clothes helps my self esteem. haha..I have to do a speech in the morning. kinda nervous about that. woo I'm out. I need to take a shower in the next hour. boo. Picture of my when I was trying on clothes

Omg He's Gonna Hang Up!

I'm kind of tired but I've been on the phone with this bucko for like 6:43 hours. XD I tried not to eat a lot today, but I ended up just scroching down a bunch of tortilla chips haha.. this is a new record :D Look, the picture means nothing. -filler-

Last Ones In

Tonight was the concert and a great day between you and me. This is the first time we got to be alone for an afternoon and just let the day take us away. Tonight, being with you during the concert was fun I gave you a kiss on the cheek for good luck and you returned one right back. Bleh during intermission, I thought we have about 20 minutes. I lost track of time just relaxing with you in the band room with no one around, and you eventually realized everyone had their instruments.. We were the last ones in the auditorium to sit down. >.> Thats not suspicious at alllll..lol but forreal! we didnt do anything haah. Look, its my "almost best friend" actuing like shes a biker. xD

Fixiated To Focus

So I woke up late this morning..that wasn't too fun. My eyelids lifts at 7:52AM and seconds later, my pupils fixiated to focus on the clock. I attempted to call a cab because my brother said he was an hour away. Ten minutes after calling the cab, he calls me back saying to go outside.. what a douche, maaann. When I called the taxi to cancel it, he hung up on me >.> Geez. I got to school and walked into the main office. As it turns out I got the really nice secretary and didn't get Central; woo :D I blame the two cups of coffee from last night. >.> Look, we ushered at the middle school tonight for the chorus concert. good memories there.

Call Me Crazy

The events of today are repeatable. What happened tonight is something I can't understand. I took a normal dose of coffee which, in turn, kept me up. Normally, even with the caffeine, I would pass out around 3AM. I'm not so sure, but around that hour, my eyes did no grow heavy. Instead, my entire body grew weak and my left hand was shaking anxiously. I needed to draw. I've been on such a hiatus from paper and pencil, that it all built up until now, begging to release. A majority of you will make fun of me for this, but I can't deny it. Hell, from a third person's view, I would've exited the screen by now. So lucky you for getting this far. Images flash through my head, not knowing what they mean. All that was for sure was that it was going to end up on the blank page in front of me. It took me all of 2+ hours to get through this. I began around 3AM and I'm typing this at 6:20AM. This is what it says on the back-

"I hope the sloppiness of this piece conveys the hard time I had making it. Every time I got to a flower, my whole body caved into a shiver. I fail to believe that the cold is the reason. A lotus represents rebirth; I feel like every flower was a release of bad memories. The roses at the bottom are part of what I have inherited as I let go of the old, hard feelings."

Oh- you haven't exited the window, yet? You're quite the trooper there. I never really know what I'm drawing or what meaning lies behind it until after I'm done. Tonight, though, I felt it with every pencil stroke. I'm not just drawing.

Touch Me Like An iPod

Woo I finally got an iPod touch! :D after two trips to the mall, of course. at around 8:30am this morning, I went to Willowbrook with my sister and her boyfriend. He ended up buying a SONY TV while I wandered off into the mall. With the crapload of birthday money I had, I decided to walk into the Apple store. I've been wanting an iPod Touch for quite some time now, but now that my 5G video iPod is messed up, I had even more reason to go through with it. Just as I was about to purchase it, the guy who was helping me out, Iqbal, said I could get 10% off if I recycled my old one. Excited yet sad, I left to do just that. As it turns out, I had to leave anyways because my sister's bf had to attend a wedding. About two hours later, I went back with my brother and got it :D That dude, Iqbal, was pretty chill. When I got home, there was nothing really to do except sleep. I sulked in a jar of Nutella with a fork for a while, but i laid on the couch and knocked out. It is so much better to sleep, rather to think as the day goes by, without being able to do something. The day sort of picked back up tonight around 10PM when we began to talk out the problem. I don't know if you're reading this right now, but I love being able to talk about our problems. I never want to just leave them hanging or push them aside. As god may be on our side once again, we stayed on the phone phone.. 1:30AM until 3:47AM. The best few hours of my day. By the end of our conversation, tensions turned into light-hearted laughs, which I just love so much. I refuse to ever let a night go by and fall asleep with a heavy heart. I love you. Oh, I got stuck sitting on the floor this morning with the TV filling up the whole seat.

All We Can Afford

Thursday..I'm so glad that I didn't have practice until 6PM tonight. It automatically meant that I got more time to spend with this guy that I'm kind of in love with. =0 It felt really nice just to relax and not have to worry about time. If a simple staircase is all we can afford, I have no complaints at all. Time tends to fly by and by 4:22PM, we've already gotten carried away with 22 minutes. At that point we're begging for time to stop and for good old Friday to arrive. Practice from 6-7 was booty. The little hour party after that was crap, with a few bad vibes in the room. That doesn't concern me anymore, though. It's finally the end of the season- almost. Look- dead babies on a stick! :D

In Centuries

Today felt like the last day that I was going to see you in centuries. I really wanted to spend as much time as possible with you since I won't be coming back from Nationals on Saturday. I may be exaggerating with the whole "century" thing, but its okay. :D I was late to sectionals today, getting caught up in time with you. I can't say that I regret doing so; I rather would have stayed in the staircase with you.

So I can't really say anything eventful happened tonight because the event fell asleep. When I came home from practice, I texted him and laid down to relax and wait for a reply. About an hour later, curious, I texted him again to figure out where he was. Within intervals of maybe 45 minutes, I closed my eyes, napped, woke up, checked my phone to check for a reply, and closed my eyes again. I think that possibly around 9, I finally fell asleep for the night. I can't get mad about it at all either because I did the exact same thing a few days prior. haha.

Sewwwww

Today was a good day.. :) well, moreover, the night was pretty up there. The day itself was just sectionals, so nothing too crazy. We went over the new work learned from the previous night and then everyone got tested on the 3rd number. That was kind of funny.. I know what it feels like to be a first year and have to do a run-though on your own.. XD it's pretty nerve wrecking, not going to lie! Most of the rookies forgot the work out of nervousness, winning themselve a couple laps around the bus route.

My night was a pretty decent one. I tried to do homework, which overall failed, but I also tried to get Sison's pants done. As I've done mine, I'm hemming in people's uniform pants to fit nicely like skinnies. I havent asked for money because I think I still suck and these are my friends, so no charge! I kind of effed her pants, so I'll fix that tomorrow night. ANYWAYS, after that, I had a good 48 minute conversation with him.. :) I feel really grateful to have someone like him because as tired as he may be, there was that little sacrifice to stay up with me. I told him not to, but he insisted. =P Nights like this are what I love.

It Looks Deep

Day two of school started out lame. My alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn't get up until 7:11. My bus comes at 7:25. i don't know how I did it, but I was early to the bus stop. As the day went on, I got better and felt even better when I finally had classes with the people I love. I sucks that I don't have classes with some people until per. 11, which is basically the end of the day. I'm still getting my schedule changed around and I'm still waiting to get to actually see my counselor!

After school, I returned to the band room just to chill as I always do before practice. I changed into normal clothes and came ouut to find that we got a brand new marimba! Mike and Shalier were putting it together as someonf us messed around with the buxes it came in. Me and Roland hopped into a super large rectangulat box that just alowed us to sit comfortably. Our amazing friends decided to close the top of the box and proceed to shake it lef tto right and slowly tip it down sideways. We were laughing the whole time inse, but then they began to lift up the bottom of the box. Overreacting jokingly, we begin to scramble in fear outside of the box. I forgot the hazards of it and crawled out with all my might. I ended up gouging my foreare from an industrial sized staple that was opened up on the cardboard. I also came out with some rugburn that still doesn't feel too pleasant. ._.

Nothing

So I have practice in 8 hours and I'm sorry for not posting earlier. Nothing rlly happend today..But i did chill with my brother and his friend so that was cool..oh and i hemmed up the Crusaders shirt I got ;D


Oh, we went to GSP today too..I had crap bubble tea, but I got my whale belt!! :D The employees at Zumiez are chill :D

Here's a filler photo

Cooookies

So there is apparently no post for August 9, 2009 BECAUSE I fell asleep around 5PM and woke up at 3:30AM!!!! But in all, its my fault. The night before that, I slept around 4AM and had to wake up that Sunday at 7:30AM to catch the 8AM mass..uhh I think it was because..oh. It was because we wanted to spend time with my mom since the passing of her father and my sister had work that afternoon by 2PM! .. see. my memory isn't that bad >.>Anyways..my on August 9th, I made cookies. :) Thats my broad post make-up for yesterday. xD