I'm Fighting For It

Life undoubtedly brings changes, but they aren't necessarily good ones. These are more or less additional challenges for us to get through. It's kind of ironic because I had just finally figured out how to control my emotions and now it seems as if that won't be necessary some time from now. Then again, changes are constantly happening. It's not like one change happens and the rest of your life is ruined. Like a domino affect, other changes will take on after that, and maybe we will find ourselves in a position better than where we think we'll be in. I promise. I will pray to god every night starting tonight that we will have our time. "I am so set on the idea that one day we will have it all." Photo is of us. You are my everything, my world. There is no such thing as a life without you.

I Don't Know, Man.. My Neck Is Feelin' A Little Sore !

I won't say anything. I won't say anything. You are mine and that is all that matters..

Today was fairly interesting due to the fact that I didn't get to school til 8:30AM. Not even down the street or around the corner, but about 100 ft. from School #4, we got into an accident. Some car ran into, more or less, under the bus. On the bus, all we felt was this slight whip-lash that made most of go "wth?" Eventually Stephanie, the bus driver, put the bus in park, and stepped out to deal with the mess. Being in the bus, we didn't really get affected. The car that ran into us, on the the other hand, got messed up! The front bumper was crushed and the hood bent up and in at a 40 degree angle. So there we were, sitting for a good 45 minutes from 7:30AM to almost 8:30AM. I actually made a new friend today in that time. I sat next to Viny, George, and new kid Andy. It was pretty funny because two of us were starving. Viny called his mom to bring him a sandwich, but then we left. hahaha Anyways, it was a nice feeling to finally see you after first period. A hug felt good about then. I need to start accepting that I won't have your shown affection all the time. There are other people in the world who have your friendship, which I understand in my shoes as well. Its just that right now, I feel like when ever we're in the same room, I always want to be with you conversing, laughing, kissing, I don't care. But that's too selfish of me. I remember months ago, when you didn't want to share me with other people. I made bad choices - whatever. Now I feel like I'm in your position, months ago, and your enjoying life as it comes. Well, it's only fair. I'll change.

Balance Scale

Today was something was a little different. I've changed things for the worse and it's affected both sides of my relationships. It's my responsibility and I fucked up. I've been trying to put back to friendships, and in turn I tipped over too much on this balance scale. I guess I deserve what I'm getting. Life won't work out exactly the way I want it to, but this is life.

Ordinary People

We all have it in us to be the nicest person we can possibly be. So why should anyone else dare judge you for your actions, or thoughts, if it is all out of common courtesy? Emotions can get in the way: jealous, anger, spite.. They can get in the way of us achieving the ultimate kind of courtesy we can. But in the end, we are all just 'ordinary' people. We can't avoid how we feel and we just have to deal with it. Life won't be the perfect happy go lucky road, but it is definitely worth it in the end.