Realistically, Baby Steps

Part of me doesn't want to lose you. No, scratch that. My entire being, everything that I am made of, does not want to lose you. We will both have to face reality later this year, but as of right now, I can't see myself being happy without you. Today was nice. Though, some feelings may have been picked at throughout the day, restraint allowed us to let it only get so far. I can't begin to express the way you make me feel when I am with you. I feel like such a girl and you even say I have become so feminine. I frankly don't care because if that's what it means to be happy, then by all means, here I am. We sat in the staircase for a good hour, just taking in reality. The feelings we have for each other are genuine. The kisses we share are unique. (Even when you try to kiss me with a half-chewed Sun-chip in your mouth - nasty!) You and I are one and nothing will tear us apart. This is my philosophy. I actually came home early today, while you had to go home, too. It is a baby step towards the fact that we will have to put certain priorities first in the future. When my father came home and saw me here, he smile was a very real one. It even made me happy to have made him smile so truly. Photo is of Joe Salem's mouth after eating some nasty, faux Sweedish Fish! hahhaa

Calimed As Ours

So I know that you say many of my blog posts have not been positive lately. Well I am sure that today was a very good one. Before jazz band, we spent like 15 minutes in our staircase. I feel like we have every right to claim it as ours because we havent so many memories there! Ahh, this afternoon I also made you cam-whore with me for a while, experimenting with silly poses and such. Photo is of my favorite from today. :)

Eyes Wide, Staircase Shenannigans

Im trying my hardest right now to keep my eyes open an awake 0__0 ..yeH thats what i feel like except im sure my eyes can never be that big. Today was good.. We almost got into a stupid arguement but after school we handled it verbally like two normal people. After that, we hid in the staircase where we got the greatest kind of "privacy" in this school. We just sat on the stairs and talked.. Ive come to realize that kisses on the ear feel amaazing ! Im so friggin tired, and there is much hw to be done.. This is a time where i am grateful in having two studies thia MP. Well, gnight, world! Photo will be of hw.. Nothin special lol

Level Up

Hrmm..today was pretty interesting. Exploring this new level in our relationship with you is turning out to be quite fun. :) We sat in the staircase probably for a good 2 hours, letting the day go by and we stood still. I regret nothing, and love you even more with every step we take. Is it Friday yet?? No? How about Wednesday? lmao XD Oh, about the picture.. after I got picked up from the high school, I went went my parents on a mass shopping spree at Kohl's! We literally spent over $300 on a bunch of things. I got me some nice heels, bras, and two plaid flannel shirts. woo hoo! :D

All We Can Afford

Thursday..I'm so glad that I didn't have practice until 6PM tonight. It automatically meant that I got more time to spend with this guy that I'm kind of in love with. =0 It felt really nice just to relax and not have to worry about time. If a simple staircase is all we can afford, I have no complaints at all. Time tends to fly by and by 4:22PM, we've already gotten carried away with 22 minutes. At that point we're begging for time to stop and for good old Friday to arrive. Practice from 6-7 was booty. The little hour party after that was crap, with a few bad vibes in the room. That doesn't concern me anymore, though. It's finally the end of the season- almost. Look- dead babies on a stick! :D