Realistically, Baby Steps

Part of me doesn't want to lose you. No, scratch that. My entire being, everything that I am made of, does not want to lose you. We will both have to face reality later this year, but as of right now, I can't see myself being happy without you. Today was nice. Though, some feelings may have been picked at throughout the day, restraint allowed us to let it only get so far. I can't begin to express the way you make me feel when I am with you. I feel like such a girl and you even say I have become so feminine. I frankly don't care because if that's what it means to be happy, then by all means, here I am. We sat in the staircase for a good hour, just taking in reality. The feelings we have for each other are genuine. The kisses we share are unique. (Even when you try to kiss me with a half-chewed Sun-chip in your mouth - nasty!) You and I are one and nothing will tear us apart. This is my philosophy. I actually came home early today, while you had to go home, too. It is a baby step towards the fact that we will have to put certain priorities first in the future. When my father came home and saw me here, he smile was a very real one. It even made me happy to have made him smile so truly. Photo is of Joe Salem's mouth after eating some nasty, faux Sweedish Fish! hahhaa

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I can honestly say that today has been one of the best days I've had in a while. It wasn't a constant "lmfao" day, but just a day where I felt relaxed and having genuine fun. After school, Ana and I got some good old Chinese food and Chinah Stahhr! My Chow Fun Flat Noodles jiggled on the not so sanitary tables. Walking back to her house, I felt like I was going to throw up at some points. The food in my stomach was just at the very top - filled. Unnecessary running across empty streets made the food move in ways I did not like. And yes, it easily proves I'm terrible at crossing streets. >.> Then, we just chilled in her living room for a while and looked up a bunch of stuff online. These are days I can honestly admit missing.. having no worries and just enjoying a good day as it comes. Random baking found it's way around the corner :D We tried to make fondant - fail. We tried to make vanilla cupcakes - success :D. When we first started walking from school, though, it was slightly awkward, but for the fact that we haven't hung out for so long.. My efforts are improving.. in my eyes atleast. I'm not asking for your credit on it, but I know that I feel it along with a dose of old happiness. I really hope this life pulls together! :) Photo's of failed fondant that turned into this hard slab of sugar. LOL