I Can Do This I Can Do This

Dang! 300th post! I'm seriously getting there! Anyways, onto today. It was good. Nothing is better than starting the week with basically a half-day, considering the delayed-opening for testing. The days tends to go a lot better like this. After today, I can finally breathe a little better. Colorguard auditions were today. I won't say I bust my ass trying to put my piece together, because I really didn't. I was the only one trying out for Captain, but it is still good to give off a nice first impression. All went well for the most part. I got my taste of the summer heat and sweat. I spent my time with you wisely and didn't complain when it was over. I'll take what I can get because everything is much easier without complaining. I'm learning. I say that I can breathe a little better only because it is one less weight off my chest. There is so much more left at the end of the year, so I just hope to get through it all. Photo is of funky hair. lol

I Want to Breathe Already!

I'm really looking forward to the end of this week. By then, I feel like I'll be able to take my first real breath of relief - stress free. It is currently 2:50AM and I just finished my Resume project. (Well, for the most part. I just have the bibliography left) Hrm. Now its 3:17AM and Papa just woke up. We have clashed at this hour too many times that he doesn't even really lecture me about it anymore. We both know its bad, but I'm not really stopping. Today has been not so much stressful, but tiring. I woke up this morning knowing that right after church I would have to make up my captain's audition piece. It was definitely annoying. I kept coming up into mind-blocks doing the same moves. I eventually gave up, only with about 1:20 of work. Haha, fail. The song I chose is too fast, but it's way too late to change it now. I hate staying on the computer so late, just for the fact htat I end up slouching over the computer desk and now my back hurts. I want to sleep already! But leadership forms call to be finished. Photo is of finished project - FINALLY.

Hola! , Awww

I can honestly say that today has been one of the best days I've had in a while. It wasn't a constant "lmfao" day, but just a day where I felt relaxed and having genuine fun. After school, Ana and I got some good old Chinese food and Chinah Stahhr! My Chow Fun Flat Noodles jiggled on the not so sanitary tables. Walking back to her house, I felt like I was going to throw up at some points. The food in my stomach was just at the very top - filled. Unnecessary running across empty streets made the food move in ways I did not like. And yes, it easily proves I'm terrible at crossing streets. >.> Then, we just chilled in her living room for a while and looked up a bunch of stuff online. These are days I can honestly admit missing.. having no worries and just enjoying a good day as it comes. Random baking found it's way around the corner :D We tried to make fondant - fail. We tried to make vanilla cupcakes - success :D. When we first started walking from school, though, it was slightly awkward, but for the fact that we haven't hung out for so long.. My efforts are improving.. in my eyes atleast. I'm not asking for your credit on it, but I know that I feel it along with a dose of old happiness. I really hope this life pulls together! :) Photo's of failed fondant that turned into this hard slab of sugar. LOL

"This Is All I Need In A Day"

Sooo..today began moody, carried on from yesterday. I honestly believe it's because I can even deal a day without seeing you. It becomes this illusion and I become mad and emotional. But for some reason, when I take a cab from Silver Lake to your house, I walk through your door, and you pull me in for a kiss, my whole entire world and my heart is okay again - well, better, at least. I pull away with my eyes closed, try to contain myself, and breathe out slowly. Texting does no justice for my heart. When I think back to it, I still feel like I have a bit of reason to back up my feelings. I felt weird for every little bit of those details. I won't blame it on my period; I won't say I'm hormonal. That never really happens. But as it turns out, I have found myself repeating the same line over and over again when I laid with you, "This is all I need in a day." Photo's of failed art from last night.