Charcoal Trials

Hrmm.. Today we got our snow day. I think everyone can agree in fact that snow days can be much more boring than a regular day. It's different from a vacation because typically, you are captivated by the snow all around you and part or you just doesn't feel like doing anything. That is exactly of what my day consisted of.. Nuffin. After yesterday's escapade, I really didn't feel like putting my suffered feet into motion. Oh, well I did go to Barnes & Noble tonight! I'm moving on to experiment with a new medium, lately: charcoal. It's so unorganized when I begin because I never get the formal lesson of how to use the medium. I use all the experimental elements. Its something I like to call trial and error. With a paper and charcoal, I see what works. Currently, my knack for perfection in proportion and shading is not up to par. Im not so much worried about it yet. Photo to be uploaded is of my father when he was 13. Second trial piece.

"This Is All I Need In A Day"

Sooo..today began moody, carried on from yesterday. I honestly believe it's because I can even deal a day without seeing you. It becomes this illusion and I become mad and emotional. But for some reason, when I take a cab from Silver Lake to your house, I walk through your door, and you pull me in for a kiss, my whole entire world and my heart is okay again - well, better, at least. I pull away with my eyes closed, try to contain myself, and breathe out slowly. Texting does no justice for my heart. When I think back to it, I still feel like I have a bit of reason to back up my feelings. I felt weird for every little bit of those details. I won't blame it on my period; I won't say I'm hormonal. That never really happens. But as it turns out, I have found myself repeating the same line over and over again when I laid with you, "This is all I need in a day." Photo's of failed art from last night.

Call Me Crazy

The events of today are repeatable. What happened tonight is something I can't understand. I took a normal dose of coffee which, in turn, kept me up. Normally, even with the caffeine, I would pass out around 3AM. I'm not so sure, but around that hour, my eyes did no grow heavy. Instead, my entire body grew weak and my left hand was shaking anxiously. I needed to draw. I've been on such a hiatus from paper and pencil, that it all built up until now, begging to release. A majority of you will make fun of me for this, but I can't deny it. Hell, from a third person's view, I would've exited the screen by now. So lucky you for getting this far. Images flash through my head, not knowing what they mean. All that was for sure was that it was going to end up on the blank page in front of me. It took me all of 2+ hours to get through this. I began around 3AM and I'm typing this at 6:20AM. This is what it says on the back-

"I hope the sloppiness of this piece conveys the hard time I had making it. Every time I got to a flower, my whole body caved into a shiver. I fail to believe that the cold is the reason. A lotus represents rebirth; I feel like every flower was a release of bad memories. The roses at the bottom are part of what I have inherited as I let go of the old, hard feelings."

Oh- you haven't exited the window, yet? You're quite the trooper there. I never really know what I'm drawing or what meaning lies behind it until after I'm done. Tonight, though, I felt it with every pencil stroke. I'm not just drawing.

An Idea Slapped Me In The Face

Oww..my face hurts. I really need to stop popping my own pimples xD I'm making it worse haha. Bleh practice today was a little on the cloudy side. I couldn't think as clearly, because another thought fogged up my mind. Jealousy is the worst, deceitful feeling out there. Ahh..so I just came back after like an hour off the computer from not finishing this and I used Smooth Away on my upper lip. GOOD GOD IT BURNS >.> Hrmm..well as for the picture I'll be posting, I was wandering the band room and passed by the stack of empty boxes that once held our brand new instruments. An idea slapped me in the face and I decided to grab a sharpie and began drawing! :D this is what became of it! Gee, leave me with a marker and some cardboard boxes, and miracles start popping out of no where! It's amazing! >:D

Roar Goes the Dino, and Squish Goes the Clay

I'm really sticking to my old habits: procrastinate until the last minute. Haha..well hopefully I do get better with this and upadate during the day, but right now I'm currently watching a show about parasites and strange deaths and whatnot.. lol. If you hhave watched the last post's link, you would understand my awkward liking for gruesome thing. Now to the point. Tonight's post is a little picture of something I'm working on. I went to michaels today to buy some clay (Crayola Air Dry) to make a T Rex.. Originally I was supposed to simply purchase a toy T.Rex for a friend, but the one i found was abotu 3in. high. Lucky me, I have the friend who wants 6 in. ._. Hell, asI make this now, it will be bigger than that! Clay is such a messy medium and my hands were stone white; they felt like stone anyway..

Now, to continue watching gore stuff. :)