MyDayWith Jacob

So I look back on today, and it went beyond well. This morning, I had no intentions of going to school other than picking up the boyprend. Fears of cutting school have completely left my mind, as I woke up in Summer mode- the mode I've been in since the last day of finals. I woke up and got dressed. [AND MET UP WITH THIS REEEEAL SEXY GUY NAMED JACOB. hahaha today me and stefanellie over dur hung out and made pancakes.. it was awesome we really got creative when it came to makin pancakes lol. but unfortunately our day had to end :l.. we tried to fix her ps3 but its crapped out cuz sony sucks mofo!!... but forreal i just helped stef one day closer too 365 posts :] keep on going almost theeeeere!!] I took the school bus and met up with him. From there, we walked out the farthest exit in the math wing and made our way to the bus stop. The walk was pretty damned warm, I'll give it that! We came home, and I took my very much needed shower. For a while we watched TV, tried to fix the PS3 and then we eventually made pancakes. Though they may have not been IHOP style, they were the best pancakes I've ever made in my life with the best person, too. We got full pretty fast. I still can't believe that spent the whole day together- cheesy as it may sound, it was like a dream come true. I've always wanted to spend a morning with him. It's almost like waking up with your significant other on a Saturday morning and just feeling that sense of complete happiness and satisfaction in every aspect of your life. I love having that feeling with you and it makes me eager for the day I can finally wake up and have you by my side. Photo is of our amazing pancakes :)

Realistically, Baby Steps

Part of me doesn't want to lose you. No, scratch that. My entire being, everything that I am made of, does not want to lose you. We will both have to face reality later this year, but as of right now, I can't see myself being happy without you. Today was nice. Though, some feelings may have been picked at throughout the day, restraint allowed us to let it only get so far. I can't begin to express the way you make me feel when I am with you. I feel like such a girl and you even say I have become so feminine. I frankly don't care because if that's what it means to be happy, then by all means, here I am. We sat in the staircase for a good hour, just taking in reality. The feelings we have for each other are genuine. The kisses we share are unique. (Even when you try to kiss me with a half-chewed Sun-chip in your mouth - nasty!) You and I are one and nothing will tear us apart. This is my philosophy. I actually came home early today, while you had to go home, too. It is a baby step towards the fact that we will have to put certain priorities first in the future. When my father came home and saw me here, he smile was a very real one. It even made me happy to have made him smile so truly. Photo is of Joe Salem's mouth after eating some nasty, faux Sweedish Fish! hahhaa

Starting Out Unfortunate

My god..I have a Terrible headache..pusling in the back of my head. Today was the first day in a while where I actually practices with the girls and it's been hell! It doesn't help that I couldn't even breathe today. After this mornings time-strained adventure, running was something I'm done with for today.. I couldn't breathe well during all my classes, taking deep breaths here and there. This morning started out unfortunate. I woke up and decided to get ready right away. The plan was to catch the morning bus to the hjs and get breakfast with him. I didn't relalize it was raining til you called. I was so fucking pissed at myself. I get way too into the excitement for my own good. This week is has been no good to me at all. I want it to be over with already.
Drop me off at the mall alone and let me sulk; let me indulge in clothing galore. Photo to be posted is of first good watercolor painting I ever did from this morning since I didn't bother to go back to sleep I couldn't.

Montville 79.8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. VANGELDREN!!!!! :D

Hrmm today was a pretty long day.. it was a good one, too, though! Unfortunately I had to wake up at like 8:30 because report time to the high school was 10AM. We practiced from 10 - 1:30PM and I'm really proud to say that I somewhat enjoyed it.. I think I had a little sarcasm in me that pulled me through- in the way that I was hyper and didn't care enough to brood. When we earned ourselves two laps for not listening to directions, I gladly ran them laps! I endured pretty well, if I may add! After surviving practice, we actually had enough free time to get ready and eat. During warm-up, the guard wasn' having the greatest time because we had just learned the opening and closer dances that morning! Tosses weren't being caught correctly and some of us were having issues with our dresses. The custume is very lengthy and it gets in the way a lot :( However, our show was veryy good! I will specifically say that it was very good confidence- wise. Personally, I was strong about about 98% of the show! Whether I messed up or not, I kept on pushing! I like where we are right now, because some of the girls are finally understanding how to perform! woot! go team haha We ended up getting 3rd out of 3, but at the same time, we would have executed competition, had there been any. The two bands before us who won were Morris Knolls and Morris Hills, who are both open bands. So technically, WE WON. haha

BBBBBBEEELLVILLE HIGH SCHOOLLL MARCHINGG BANND!!

Today Belleville had its first competition of the season :D To be honest, it felt like a good one! [In my opinion at least] Unfortunately, we got 4th place out of 7 other bands [including Nutley >:0]. In turn, though, this simply acts as greater motivation to push ourselves and be amazing! The day was pretty long, too! Somehow, I had forced myself to wake up at 7AM and get ready. We practiced from 8:15AM-11AM. The practice felt really good and we were getting a lot done. The show itself was looking 10x better and everyone was excited. After wards, we had an hour or so to get food and come back to change and prepare. Jaelynn's friend, Erik, came along. I had never really got to talk to that kid, but I've realized that he's pretty cool. Apparently, he's coming to every competition, so this should be good lol. The bus ride was pretty fun.. After the show, we got back and I was BEAT. Unloading the truck, I still felt some energy flowing through, but I knew it was going to run dry soon. By the time I was at Maryanne's house with Ana and Jaelynn, I was dead tired. It might've been the Jolt I had that day..lmao. I was so pumped that day though..it got me hoping for next weekend to come a little bit faster! South Brunswick, here we come!