See Ma, We Could Wear Shorts!

So today was the first day of my stay at Monmouth University for this HOBY leadership seminar. It was definitely much more than i had expected! But back tracking to this morning? Oh my, what a stressful morning that was! Basically, last night carried into today with my mother yelling at me to. Bring this and that. I realize that she does it out of care and sorry but its a little over the limit or out of bounds of the correct way. The way she addresses me to bring items was just too much pressure on top of my own worry to pack by myself. But anyways, we got here really early. We left the house a little past and got here at a little past 8.

As of expectations, it was NOT what i expected! When you think leadership seminar you think boring and formal,when actually the people are crazy hyper and fun. While still getting the message across. It all began driving up to registration parking lot. The people directing us pointed the way and screamed "are you readdyyy!!??hooobbyy!!" and then when we went to registration table we walked through "the tunnel" of cheering and welcome. I got to the dorm and got settled, still with no room mate. We went back down to the orientation. To find that this is where i part ways with my sister and mom. It was a quick depart but i was ready. From there i walked over to a group of other ambassadors in the beginning of a chain of ice breaker games which was pretty interesting considering the energy already established. After, we found ourselves in groups at a hall at specific tables. There music played ,we jammed awkwardly just kidding. We have learned SOO many cheers today its insane! A big importance about this weekend to me is to explore my social abilities that I know I have. My group is a bit awkward but were warming up to each others. At times I dislike it because I have 3 catty girls and it kind of got annoying how they would text or only speak to each other. But then again my so skills aren't on blast yet. I look forward for tomorrow with that. After the talks and dancing , the after of lectures began. The first was good and pretty moving. The man ripped a 20 bill in pieces to signify its importance. After that, the presentations got monogamous and sleep started to catch on. Then we made commercial skits to sell a product based on a good characteristic of leadership. They activity actually let us bond better in a way and all my bets or on tomorrow. i realized today to not leave out those shy awkward people because i well enough know i used to be that same girl. Photo is of the dorm :D

"Wow Backwards Is Wow!"

The variety in my life has definitely been staged today and I feel so happy about it. I hung out with new people I usually don't chill with and I was myself! Sure, I may have been quiet a few times, but I put my best foot forward and for that I am satisfied. At first, I chilled with Roland at his house and ate his leftovers. Mmm, KFC baby! Then, we went to play volleyball in Kearny. Chubbs almost got eaten by a hawk - the poor baby! :[ I really sucked at volleyball in the sand, but whatever - the sun was in my face too! Later, Roland left and Alo, Joriz, Laila, Mikki Jo, and I went to eat at Hooters. It was my first time and I must say the wings are fucking amazing!! It was also Trivia Night which was pretty fun! Then, to end the night, we met up with a few more people and went to Babo and got some tasty bubble tea! Yuum! We stood by the water for a while, taking in the cold and its entirety. By then, my worry to get home was already a bit high. Eventually I got home. Driving around is by far one of the funnest things ever. The idea of just driving around and laughing at this and that and telling stories is something I completely favor as I am willing to do it again :) Photo is of Rolando's Winnie the Pooh gummy bear work of art! :D

I've Found You.

I feel like my whole world has cleared up. Tonight brought around the most heart opening conversations that I should have had a few months back. I finally realized why it wasn't working out. Our status is only meant to be kept at a level of friendship at most. You told me that you're heart beated faster every time you saw me. I couldn't take it and told you my honest thoughts. I was mentally lost in this relationship and my heart wasn't beating as fast. I finally acknowledged what does make my heart race though. My smile gets bigger as this person replies to me right now. The fullest of moons can't even beat the brightness of my smile in this dark room. As you said, best night ever.

Oh, I went to my pediatritian today for a physical. All sophmores are required to get one this year, so today was my day. It was so awkward how they made me change into a medical gown.. I also got three shots. D: Two boosters and one Tetanus shot. Apparently it now looks like I have Tetanus because i also got bit by a mosquito tonight at practice. >.>

It Looks Deep

Day two of school started out lame. My alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn't get up until 7:11. My bus comes at 7:25. i don't know how I did it, but I was early to the bus stop. As the day went on, I got better and felt even better when I finally had classes with the people I love. I sucks that I don't have classes with some people until per. 11, which is basically the end of the day. I'm still getting my schedule changed around and I'm still waiting to get to actually see my counselor!

After school, I returned to the band room just to chill as I always do before practice. I changed into normal clothes and came ouut to find that we got a brand new marimba! Mike and Shalier were putting it together as someonf us messed around with the buxes it came in. Me and Roland hopped into a super large rectangulat box that just alowed us to sit comfortably. Our amazing friends decided to close the top of the box and proceed to shake it lef tto right and slowly tip it down sideways. We were laughing the whole time inse, but then they began to lift up the bottom of the box. Overreacting jokingly, we begin to scramble in fear outside of the box. I forgot the hazards of it and crawled out with all my might. I ended up gouging my foreare from an industrial sized staple that was opened up on the cardboard. I also came out with some rugburn that still doesn't feel too pleasant. ._.

Beginning Le Sabre!

As discussed in the previous post, I have begun band camp. This day was day numero 2. I can't say anything was too different but the weather sure was the same! HOT. HOT. and. HOT >.> All I can tell you is that my tanlines are improving and hey, theres nothing we can do about it is there? On that Tuesday, I remember being able to feel the heat burning my skin tone 2 shades darker than it already was. I knew that when I would get home and look in the mirror before jumping into the shower, I would find a greater contrast in what my skin looks like now to what it did only three days ago. Oh, I also started spinning sabre that night as well! Our instructors came that night and pulled us separate from the rest of the guard. Shannon, Jaelynn, Regina, and I were about to begin weapon basics. We stood in a small block of four, in first position, with best posture possible. I borrowed an extra pair of Shannon's guard gloves, being that I lost my own pair earlier into last season. Booyyyyyyy did those glove smell bad! They've been through seasons of lots of sweat! Blegh, thinking of it doesn't give me a good feeling. I stood in the back line, with my sabre at a good left flat, as we began to do basics. PJ only asked for one count, but I still felt that nervous butterflies feeling in my stomach. It was not that I had never practiced with a sabre before, but it was the first actual practice where I was spinning with others and not at home. Also, as I stood in the back I look at the other three girls and thought, "Wow, it feel like our first day all over again..". Despite how long any of us had been spinning, we were all in the same scenario right now. We were all equally quiet; no egos were shooting into the sky, and no one was being a smart ass. At first, he said to do simple spins. Then, he moved up to blade tosses (which I love!) singles, doubles, then triples. NEXT, we jumped to regular tosses: singles, doubles, triples, quads, fives, sixes.. oh then we stopped there because we couldn't go any higher. haha. I just thought it was crazy how he was making us do all that in one day! We're spinning sabre in this year's show, and all I can hope for is to be as good as possible!

Tension Rods Electrocute My Moods

Today has been a stressful day..well i should say night. My mother left earlier and I went to practice from 6-8 PM stress is a word that underestimates my moods from tonight. ._. Oh, and I got locked out the first day I'm home alone. failure. The lightning was craazy

Webcamming makes up for a crap night lol Thanks guys!