Tears, Target & A Phone Call

I told myself I would try to start summer reading and AP Chem work today. Yeah, pretty funny joke there. The most of my efforts went to trying to get a ride to the mall to get a phone case, and still I am empty handed. Last night didn't go well, as far as continuing that three day streak of pure happiness. I screwed up a nice, awaited phone call, being tired and out of it completely. I called him back this morning and it completely made up for last night. Our tired, groggy selves started talking and for almost an hour did I feel happiness. The happiness I should have felt last night. I went to Target tonight, hoping to get a phone cover. What I did get though, was a crying sister, whom was arguing with her boyfriend. She wanted to go to the beach with him tomorrow morning, but his backup car has bad tires. She tried to negotiate with him, propositioning to go half on the two tires at $45 a piece. He really didn't want to spend the money on a car he rarely uses. I tried to cheer her up, cracking jokes here and there, and for the most part it worked. Tomorrow is a big day, and I'm excited :) It's the 30th! Photo is of the childhood dream.

Failure By Design

Tonight brought up a little scare that had me down in the dumps. All day I felt on the fence, nor happy nor sad, but by 9PM, the night was already a tough one. When our relationship is risked, I freak out. Then, I have to play the whole "he said she said" game and find out who knows, when we're trying to keep it on the down-low. I look back on it now and I feel bad for suddenly riding up my friend's ass with blame and a warning. I should have approached the situation more politely, but hey, it's what happened. Today also consisted of trying to make flag designs for our show. I'm willing to do as much as I can to make this show good. It will literally be ours. Photo is of that design. PS. I need to get out more..beach tomorrow yay! :D

I WANT TO SLEEP.

Oh my goodness I am so tired! It seems as if the stress will never end until Finals are over! Tongiht was the Tri-M induction ceremony and I was very happy for him :) His mother came and I did not even the chance to talk to him. Events like that are something I would love to share with someone, but since she was around, I couldn't even glance at them. I couldn't even get a goodbye either. Right now, I'm failing at my projects and all the homework I have due in the next to days. My eyes are begging for sleep and I can't do much. Tomorrow is definitely something I wasn to get over with already Dear god, someone help me. Photo is of the 7 containers of ice cream that we won ourselfs, from attending the Momorial Day Service.

Stressing, But Everything Will Be Okay

I could've cut school today, but I think I liked my decision to stay. I haven't seen the guy I love for days and it was very relieving to feel those soft lips again. The day itself actually wasn't too bad. The fact that everyone cut for Senior Cut Day made all my classes empty, as if it were a half day! I can't deny the amount of stress I felt today though. Even though it is the end of the year, I feel like the work keeps piling on to get ready for the "big finish". Unfortunately, part of the reason why I had to stay today was because I was thrown the responsibility of making sure that the guard knew the 3rd number for tomorrow. That responsibility sat on top of all of these Finals Reviews that I have to get started on! After school, I got some food with the love and honestly, just being with him calmed me down a lot. Practice at 4 didn't go bad at all, considering that I got the DVD from All-States from Jeffrey to use as reference. Smart, right?! lol. I came home and hopped in the shower. It was much needed after a day feeling the gross humidity! Fresh out of the shower, clothed and all, I get a phonecall from Jae saying they have a surprise for me. They stopped by and I came down. As I'm walking towards the car, Alo, Joriz and Jae bust out with water balloons in their hands and start throwing!! What the haaiill, man! Right after my nice shower too!! I guess it's a new kind of love from friends. haha. Photo is of my SAT Prep assignment. It asked me to put a name and so I was referred to as "Nigg" for a good 10 slides.

We'll Be In The Green Soon

I'm not going to let little arguments ruin us. I'm not. The weather was really nice today, but a bit hotter than I favor. Today made me realize that we are heading towards the end of this year so quickly, it's kind of too fast. Finals are in about a week and I haven't even started my final exam reviews. I have a leadership seminar to attend and I am just screwed. I will tell myself over and over that I can do this and I can. I've dealt with the end of the year for a good 9 years so why should I stop now? Ahh "The trick is to keep on breathing" because I know that once summer rolls around and we are in the safe green-zone, everything will be good and running smooth. Photo is of the walk home. Every time I turn onto Newark Ave. by Claara Mass, I can't help but admire the way the shadows of the trees pattern and trail down the sidewalk. It so beautiful in person. It reminds me of those perfect summer days. :)

Worth The Risks

So far this week is going good and we still have Dorney Park on Friday to look forward to!!! Today was an unexpected plan till about 8th period. After school, we spent the day with Joriz and Alo. When we double date, it's something honestly very comfortable. We can virtually talk to them about anything and the great part about it is that they've been there. They understand the majority of things we say or complain about. Joriz had work, so we chilled at Applegate Farm with her and we got "The Farm"!! Let's see.. 4 scoops of Graham Central Station, 4 scoops of Ice Cream Cake, 4 scoops of ButterPecan, and 4 scoops of another that I can't recall. Oh - and then 4 toppings: hot fudge, caramel, sprinkles, and cherries! :) Sooo fattening and good! We stayed until 6 and chilled out, then we went to the mall to get Joriz a phone case. It made me happy to be in public with you. Maybe I'm a nerd for wearing your sweater the whole time because it rained. :) Your kisses felt so soft and nice. I definitely feel like I'm falling in love with you like we are back in September. :) God, you make me feel so happy and it is my job to make you feel the same about me! After wards, we hit Hooters for some amazing wiinggs! ;D Tonight was your first time and my second. Unfortunately we all got into an open argument that killed the joy of the day, but I felt so happy to have had that conversation. I teared up because finally, I had a second and third opinion that didn't make me feel so wrong. Joriz was right when she said that there are so many times I always feel wrong, even with the argument possibly on my side. I have found myself finding that I have lost my credibility sometimes. Anyways, we climbed back out of that hole and continued to eat on! Goodness, I have no idea how I ate the amount I did on top of "The Farm"! I haven't eaten anything since! On the way back home, I was hoping to lie back into your arm, full, satisfied, and relaxed. Unfortunately, we could afford that. Your parents called and said they were on the way to pick you up from "ushering at the concert". I was so thankful that there was actually a concert tonight as an alibi! As soon as you got off the phone with you mother, you began to hyperventilate and I didn't know what else to do but pull you close to me and hold you tightly. Sure, I was scared, too, but your safety definitely came first. I kissed the side of your face, your temple, and in my mind, I prayed to God that you would be okay. "Everything will be okay" I promised. Our alibi was good. Thanks to Alo's driving skeeeeelz, we got back to town and right when we got to the front of the MS you parents were around the corner, so we went around back and dropped you off there. As it turned out, everything was good and you were safe. My heart was able to breathe. All the risks are worth it sometimes. If we can afford days like this again, why not do it? We just need to be really careful with back up plans and everything! Photo is of "The Farm"!! The love claimed the shirt that comes with it xD Other is of something I can' =t believe you did. haha

This Week Has GOT To End!!

Happy Hump Day! Part of me is glad that it's Wednesday because that means we are that much closer to the weekend- to some kind of rest. The stresses of this week can get pretty unbearable if you can't organize yourself. I'm at the point where I'm kind of giving up as work also starts to die down a little. Today we had Talent Show rehearsal which was dang busy. We finally got our mix in which I pulled my ass through the night in order to make, and more choreo was made today. Now that I think about it, we have most of our 3 minutes done! I'm also learning to realize that hey, I might actually be able to dance! I'm really excited and hopefully for what we can pull together by tomorrow. It's going to be a crazy night. Photo is Sean while we chilled back stage. :D

Brick Walls to Doors

So this whole week is something I just want to finish. I want to get Deck-A-Wall over with and just hop onto that bus to Ohio! Tonight, I got home and just continued working on items I'm going to need for tomorrow when we put it up. I laid out the table covers on the floor, specifically the red one, and began to paint lines all across and down. A brick wall. I had another table cover to do the same thing to, then I made a door. It came out pretty decent. I deleted the photos I had of it, so here's a filler.

That Packet Of Papers

It surprised me that you actually cared for once to make our efforts work. Anyways, today continues the finally digressing stresses of this week. Deck-a-wall is something I am finally almost done with, THANK YOU. Today I actually finished the cardboard stoop. A greater feeling of excitement has finally surfaced, as we got our Band Trip itineraries today. I feel like that simple packet of papers creates such un imagineable excitements. Here we come Oh-Hiyooo! :D Photo is of cardboard stoop of success!

Full Day Craze

My boyfriend would kill me, if he knew I was writing this at 2:25AM. He told me to go to bed by 1AM, but holy cow I've had a great day of work! It was stressful nonetheless, but it wasn't as if someone was holding a gun to my head. The thoguht that there is so much due tomorrow continued to flood my head, causing it to pulse. I just finished editting a video project for English. It's only extra credit, but I'm currently getting a 77 in the class. Deck-A-Wall is coming together, but I can't bring anything in tomorrow as requested. DUDE. I went to the dollar store today to get supplies and I LOVE THAT STORE. I don't know, maybe it's the fact that we're in some kind of late depression/recession, but I loved seeing so many useful items for like a dollar. I don't care if it was cheap! >:0 I want to go back! Photo is of the CD I'm handing my video in as. I'm actually proud of it! Check it out here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQh898IcOgM

Deck-A-Wall, Failing English.

Today was just the beginning of a crazed weekend. Unfortunately is isn't a weekend of fun, but intead work. A group met up at Joe's this afternoon to work on Deck-A-Wall. Unfortunately, I get the hardest position of designing not one character, but the backgrounds for each character. Then, on the side, I have also been working on my extra credit project for English. God, I need that. -_-' I'm virtually failing that class. Anyways, it is 2AM and I should really be saving my energy for tomorrow. Photo's of the game plan.

Mother Nature Sucks

I woke up at 12:30PM today! There is always a sense of slight disgust with myself, but oh well. I feel like when I wake up at any second before 11AM, I still have a morning to spare. But when my groggy eyes fix onto a clock reading 12:30PM or any minute in the eleventh hour, I feel like a morning was wasted. Not much happened today (it's not like my life is exploding with events), but I still have the greatest urge to go to GSP mall! Buddies from the other night actually invited me to go earlier, but because I came home so late, I knew it wasn't happening. Today was also more focused on hustling my ass on all the work I have waiting for me, due Monday. It is a very stressful thing too - waiting for your period. It is more especially irritating when the lame iPod app you downloaded lies to you, saying it was supposed to come 4 days ago. Come on, Mother Nature! Photo is of a spider I killed this morning. -_-'


And here's another photo just for the sake of it's cuteness.

Half A Year

So I'm laying in bed now, begging to rest. I have officially burnt out mind mind in Chemistry tonight for the test I have tomorrow. then again? I can look back on today and recall some of the happiest kisseds I have shared with him. Our monthary today marked half a year. Though every day has not been a gorgeous , amazing one, I am so grateful to be spendking this year with you..maybe this life in all. :) They way I kissed you was so unconsciouslly more soothing than usual <33 my life and heart are yours. and i would like the hope yours are mine <3 =] Photo's of scribbles on the foggy window.

He's Having a B.F.! (Bitchfit)

Goodness...I really need to stop baking. It's getting tiring and tempting! There are points where I just wanna eat the brownies for myself >_> I really surprised I actually got all my homework done tongiht..well most of it. I had expected to still be sitting here right now, gouging my eyes out, begging for sleep. Hrm..today was nothing too crazy.. This morning, pa's period came and he had a bitch fit right before church. On the car ride there, he decides he is jsut going to drop my mother, my siter, and I off and he's going home. He's suchhh a girl I swear! Photo to be uploaded is of brownies -_-

Monotony

Today... Sundays are so monotonous. Like yesterday I've been working on midterm review packets and reading the death of me : The Canterbury Tales. I took a break and headed to Clifton to the Verizon store to buy something for my sister . I ended up getting dropped off at BN for like half an hour, because my brother wanted to go see some girl at Applebee's. There, I ran into, or was stalked down rather, by Roland, Rey, Raymond, Fetus, and Kristine. That was a fun like..10 minutes or so. Then, I come home to a wonderful Chemistry Review packet and the ending of a long-ass story. Photo's of my brother devouring a burrito at Chipotle. I fucking hate weekends.

Cheat Sheet

So I actually paid attention to church today.. it was pretty wierd. I'm not gonna say that I'm a changed person because knowing me, I'll probably daze off next week and my mind will wander elsewhere. I actually got work done today though. I finished my cheat sheet and whatnot, while webcamming with Ana. Fun stuff, mann. I need to pull my shit together with classes because I can't afford to go down hill from here in any way. Look, I bonded with my papa =0

Sure, My Birthday Is Coming Up, What About It?

WOOO 2 more days until my birthday! haha.. Eh. I'm not really doing anything for it, but I guess whatever happens happens. Hrm..whats today..Monday.. pretty good day.. I think that knowing that this week is going to be short made today go by quickly. I'm really trying to get back into the habit of actually doing my homework and paying attention in class. I'll get back into it..I hope.

Early Delay

Talking to you right now is definitely making my night.. ;D

Today all juniors had PSAT's and so every other class had to report at 10:40AM. I was so relieved to find that out yesterday because it gave me the extra kind of sleep I kinda of needed. I woke up around 7:30, still groggy and unwilling to fully regain conscience. Having nothing else to do, I just got ready for the most part. Around 8:30AM I called him and we talked for a good hour. By 10AM it was time to hang up, because he had to take a shower and get ready for school. We met up at the highschool, which didn't open util 11:22AM. woot!The greatest thing about it was that this extra delay made the day go by extremely fast. =] Practice today went fairly well because for Jaelynn and I, sabre finally clicked. We actually understand all the work we're doing along with progress in our tosses. I'm feelin good!

Spark It Up

As far as this Tuesday went, I had 6-8 practice. I really dislike having it so late, because I'm just too tired to do anything by then. Hrmm..we learned flag work for the third number- FINALLY. We have been workless for way too long!

School has really been getting to me lately. Its more of the fact that I don't care, really. I have a test this coming Wednesday on a novel that my English teacher handed out farrrr in the beginning of the year. From all my efforts, I am currently on page 41. I plan to read Sparknotes, but that will probably fail anyway. I'm so lazy. :D

Nights Like This

I look foreward to 3rd period, now. Because as I talk to you tonight, it makes me anticipate the fact that I can see you tomorrow.

Classes today were boring as usual. I ended up falling asleep in US History, watching a cheap, old movie about the Declaration Of Independence. Wind Ensemble was a big highlight, because Mrs. B wasn't there and so we all hung out for a good 40 minutes. That class is everything I love; moreover because of the people. When ever the bell rings at 2:31PM, I feel so accomplished to know that I got through the entire day! I broke up with Fred today. We're still friends, but to be honest, I can't be in a relationship where I just don't feel the same. It is, in all honor, rude to continue under false meanings. Practice after school was brutal. It felt like it was never going to end. Resetting sets was all we did, as rookies could not even get the work right. Tonight is the ultimate highlight of my day. Texting certain people makes my smile widen farther than possible and it makes my heart thump through my skin. Nights like this are something I can get used to. :)