Worth The Risks

So far this week is going good and we still have Dorney Park on Friday to look forward to!!! Today was an unexpected plan till about 8th period. After school, we spent the day with Joriz and Alo. When we double date, it's something honestly very comfortable. We can virtually talk to them about anything and the great part about it is that they've been there. They understand the majority of things we say or complain about. Joriz had work, so we chilled at Applegate Farm with her and we got "The Farm"!! Let's see.. 4 scoops of Graham Central Station, 4 scoops of Ice Cream Cake, 4 scoops of ButterPecan, and 4 scoops of another that I can't recall. Oh - and then 4 toppings: hot fudge, caramel, sprinkles, and cherries! :) Sooo fattening and good! We stayed until 6 and chilled out, then we went to the mall to get Joriz a phone case. It made me happy to be in public with you. Maybe I'm a nerd for wearing your sweater the whole time because it rained. :) Your kisses felt so soft and nice. I definitely feel like I'm falling in love with you like we are back in September. :) God, you make me feel so happy and it is my job to make you feel the same about me! After wards, we hit Hooters for some amazing wiinggs! ;D Tonight was your first time and my second. Unfortunately we all got into an open argument that killed the joy of the day, but I felt so happy to have had that conversation. I teared up because finally, I had a second and third opinion that didn't make me feel so wrong. Joriz was right when she said that there are so many times I always feel wrong, even with the argument possibly on my side. I have found myself finding that I have lost my credibility sometimes. Anyways, we climbed back out of that hole and continued to eat on! Goodness, I have no idea how I ate the amount I did on top of "The Farm"! I haven't eaten anything since! On the way back home, I was hoping to lie back into your arm, full, satisfied, and relaxed. Unfortunately, we could afford that. Your parents called and said they were on the way to pick you up from "ushering at the concert". I was so thankful that there was actually a concert tonight as an alibi! As soon as you got off the phone with you mother, you began to hyperventilate and I didn't know what else to do but pull you close to me and hold you tightly. Sure, I was scared, too, but your safety definitely came first. I kissed the side of your face, your temple, and in my mind, I prayed to God that you would be okay. "Everything will be okay" I promised. Our alibi was good. Thanks to Alo's driving skeeeeelz, we got back to town and right when we got to the front of the MS you parents were around the corner, so we went around back and dropped you off there. As it turned out, everything was good and you were safe. My heart was able to breathe. All the risks are worth it sometimes. If we can afford days like this again, why not do it? We just need to be really careful with back up plans and everything! Photo is of "The Farm"!! The love claimed the shirt that comes with it xD Other is of something I can' =t believe you did. haha

NJ PASS BS

Ahhh testing, testing, testingg! I have learned to have lose all i interest or care in so. This morning was the first day of the NJ PASS, and I could've cared less. I swear.. Teach me something and test me now, but don't even bother to ask me of it a year from now. The afternoon on the other hand was interesting. Alo drove us around .. Its pretty cool how weve gotten chill with him. Then we got dropped off at Wendys which was very fun :) you make me laugh like such a girl its wonderful haha. I had my first "soda" float with you today while sharing our second large vanilla frosty haha Photo is of you :)

DANCE ON THE TABLE!

"Today was an okay day. I definitely had time with you, maybe less than an hour. It felt like less. It's been so long since I've been to your house and for minutes before you called say to come up, I thought you were going to tell me off again..to go home or find someone else to hang out with because some one's home. I told you that I really don't like that feeling and so I think to myself..that if it happened so often, it would become something I'm used to. That's nothing anyone should be used to. I'm definitely not caving into my old whining self; I'm just stating my mind. Today I feel like we slipped a bit.. that when I first got to your house, you were still upset about something. I think that's where I'm at fault too. I shouldn't bother to always feel what you feel. Instead, when you're down, I need to be the one who's cheery to cheer you up again. Anyways, after leaving, I got picked up by Olga for a ride home and I ended up tagging along for a trip to Mickey D's :D Much fun driving around with her. It was the first time she's been through a drive thru AND her first almost accident 0_0 haha Photo's of the new amazing game me and Jaelynn made up in history LOL."