"We Could Virtually Have Had A Baby!"

Wow, we could have virtually had a baby in the amount of time we've been dating. As of today, we make 9 months - 9 months I would never want stripped from my mind. No matter what plans needed to be arranged, I know that I needed to be with you. If you couldn't come over, I would willingly bike there and find somewhere to chill - no questions asked. As it turned out, you came over :) I met you half-way here on bike, while you rode yours. Eh, I actually left too late that "half" wasn't exactly relative to it's measured distance. Although our day started a little later because both of us were too tired to get up, we still had our day. Today was also the day I was so eager to make up yesterday's failure in. You were able to tell that I had a little bit a lottabit of tension, trying to make sure I didn't ruin today. Things were a little off at first because I thought about yesterday, but I snapped out of the thought as we began to play video games. I told you the other day that you are so many firsts in my life - both relationship wise and just in general. That involves video games. You know that I freak out and spazz with any kind of RPGs because I never was used to playing them. Now, you are introducing me to them, kind of like facing my fears. I felt accomplished today with a few head shots here and there on the last bullet and amazing [unintentional] feats. Yet, we could not have any of that without any of my yelping when new enemies appear or my abrupt pausing of the game at certain parts. We laughed and laughed as we traded off missions in Drake's Fortune because we kept dying! My mind was clear from there on and your kisses felt so good. Later, we went into the kitchen and started to make crepes - that was when my tension also began to rise. My lola was just leaning against the back of a chair, staring while we cooked and I just felt super uncomfortable at the stove and pulling ingredients out. You tried to tell me to relax and that everything was fine - sorry it took me forever to cool down! x3 You held me at the shoulders with a reassuring look and gave me a few reassuring kisses. It's nothing against her, but I just feel awkward being watched. Eh. I let you taste your first crepe with Nutella filling and you liked it - that brought me a smile. Around 1PM we finally got to get comfortable on the couch and watch Fight Club on Blu-Ray. You love that movie and have been dying to show me it, as I have been dying to watch it with you. It was really good, I'm not going to lie :) I want to finished the movie with you, which will also mean another day you'll be over! I promise you: this summer can & will be ours. At 2:15PM we rode back to the other side of Belleville and just finished our morning together at Wendy's to get some real food! We had to part ways after that - you wanted to get home before yo' mama did. I can't help but think... that if you and I can afford days like this and simply feel this way for so long, then I'm ready to spend a whole lifetime with you. It's understood that you can't have your good days with out your bad ones, but right now we need to balance those days out and climb out of our hole. I'm willing to do that for you and with you. I love you so much.. like a fat boy loves cake. :) After I left, I didn't want to go home so I went to Stop&Shop to buy random things. I ended up getting this bleaching kit for some unwanted stomach hairs. -insecurity mode- Haha, I just think it'll look nice looking more bare at the beach! I can think back on today and really say that I redeemed myself for yesterday's weird phase. God, Jacob Reyes, I love you beyond words. You literally help build me into a person I'm not ashamed to call yours. As our corny romantic minds think, "Always&Forever To Infinity&Beyond" Happy 9 months, mi vida. :) Photo is of us before leaving for Wendy's.

A Better Step In Direction

Today was decent. Recently, I have been feeling in a lack of my social being: someone I used to be. I took up the opportunity to chill with Ana at her house for her brother's birthday/graduation party. For a while it was just the three of us, chilling in his room as she played Mass Effect. I really miss having that friend who you could just chill with, not necessarily doing anything exciting. In ways, we found our laughs through misheard slurs or spontaneous ideas of what to do. I've sworn that life is better to move on, to forget struggle with changes in who you are, but there are somethings you can't go. For example, friendships. Later on, Jaelynn and Deejay came over and things finally got exciting in a way. We talked, played some word games, watched Jae fail at the Umbrella game for an hour and a half, and all around had fun. Today was a good start. Photo is of Jae being a creeeper haha!

Battle Of The Classes

Today was like the first step for man on the moon. Just kidding. Today definitely felt like a first step. After school, we went to Deejay's house to watch them rehearse for battle of the classes. The Freshies definitely have a good act going for them. The important step in my eyes was the fact that Ana and Jacob hung out together somewhat in the same group. It wasn't really awkward at all. No hard feelings or anything. They don't realize it, but they do have things in common. It made me happy to see that, it really did. Today is our 7th monthary and it should have been a good day and it was for the most part. It sucks that we couldn't really spend the day with eachother, but I'll get what I can. It's 12:29AM and I think I already fucked up. I'm this douche who doesn't always listen. Photo is of a condom my brother openly leaves on the computer table. ew.

Day 1 Of Spring Break

First day of spring break and nothing too eventful. I have basically eaten the day away, but in moderation. I did not successfully eat for hours on end, but at least once an hour I found myself putting some kind of carb in my mouth. The most I've done today was clean the computer table area. I'm really sad that there is no more Nutella, but maybe that is for my benefit. I really need to lose weight. Hmm ..maybe I will work out tomorrow and get my gut ready for band trip. Geez. I need to pull it together. Today I also worked on the piece I started yesterday. Photo is of that: day 2

DANCE ON THE TABLE!

"Today was an okay day. I definitely had time with you, maybe less than an hour. It felt like less. It's been so long since I've been to your house and for minutes before you called say to come up, I thought you were going to tell me off again..to go home or find someone else to hang out with because some one's home. I told you that I really don't like that feeling and so I think to myself..that if it happened so often, it would become something I'm used to. That's nothing anyone should be used to. I'm definitely not caving into my old whining self; I'm just stating my mind. Today I feel like we slipped a bit.. that when I first got to your house, you were still upset about something. I think that's where I'm at fault too. I shouldn't bother to always feel what you feel. Instead, when you're down, I need to be the one who's cheery to cheer you up again. Anyways, after leaving, I got picked up by Olga for a ride home and I ended up tagging along for a trip to Mickey D's :D Much fun driving around with her. It was the first time she's been through a drive thru AND her first almost accident 0_0 haha Photo's of the new amazing game me and Jaelynn made up in history LOL."

35% Are Wacking Off

Good god, chat roulette is quite the hilarious site, yet the greatest form of today's entertainment! I spent the afternoon at Ana's; it's honestly nice to relive some good laughs. Gah, it doesn't help reliving some familiar screams based on videos that pop up with an unsightly image at the end, though. I can never seem to get over those. I'm really getting used to taking the bus and I really don't mind it. I took the bus to the other side of town today and walked the rest of the distance; the walks don't bother me anymore :D Anyways, I'm pretty happy with how today turned out. I was so scared to make plans, but here I am bragging about a well-laughed afternoon. Chat roulette is very interesting! About 35% of all users are jerking off and you can become a 100% asshole! I swear, there is some kind of relief being able to do that! I would love to play it again, along with reliving another day like this :D Btw, I fixed Ana's Ring Of Death on her 360! [by accidentally knocking it over] bahahah Photo's of my long-lived friend, the pig-pillow. He's so soft. :3

Weather Denied Us A Better Day

I'm really learning to love Fridays. Weather denied us a better day, but I'm very content with how today was. Having somewhat an hour or so is something I'm still grateful for. Practice tonight wasn't too bad either. Neither of our instructors came until 6:30PM. The first one who came is too lazy to even clap her hands to keep tempo, so the period that she ran practice was not even legitimate. When PJ came, practice just got a little bit more serious, but overall rehearsal went by pretty fast. I was glad to come home and finally relax. Though I have a competition tomorrow, I can finally drop every tension and take in some deep breaths.

Deprive Me More

I really cant believe I'm still awake right now. Sleep deprivation is a good term to use at this moment. This long day began with forcing myself to wake up at 7AM to report at 7:30AM. Due to Columbus Day, the band had to do a Town Hall performance and a parade route. Both were faily interesting, but quite tiring. Afterward, me, Jaelynn, Emily, and Ana went back to Ana's for her party. Tonight was really fun as more of the band people I love came. Rey, Joe, and Roland actually showed up, yayy! We all laid in the street in a comfy blob and stared at the stars. We also discussed life and its goodies. Then, we ended up playing Manhunt. I would have to say: that was the best session of that game I've even been apart of. I ended up rolling on the ground after almost running into Emily, rolling on my ankle, and slipping on the muddy grass! We did the two extremely different things, and both were quite enjoyable. :D

So I Found My Way To Urban Outfitters

Today turned out to be pretty chill! It was better than I had expected, noting the new discoveries we made tonight and new people we met. Today started off with me and my brother going to Garden State Plaza for the third day in a row and it was just as great! I really want that to become a mall we go to more religiously..I am so tired of Willowbrooke Mall in Wayne lol I know that place like the back of my hand! Its more fun venturing around the hugest mall around and getting lost rather than knowing where you are all the time. ..Its actually also more fun going with friends..I should do that more often also >.> So I found my way to the Urban Outfitters store and decided this is where I would buy my gift for Angela's party tonight. I absolutely love that store; not for the clothes, but for all the miscellanious items they sell! You've got books about sex positions and old school childrens books like Where the Wild Things Are sitting right next to fisheye cameras and gigantic DJ headphones ranging from $40-120$ ! I really want to get one of those cameras! But I believe one of the most interesting items there was the Hamburger Telephone remeniscent of Juno! haha and right beside it was a French Fries telephone, too! That was the best. I ended up getting her a Muffy [or is it Duffy?] figure which is a blank figure you can draw on and stuff and put stickers on and dress it up and just go all out creative on it. To be honest, I would have liked to get it for myself as well as this one book where each page gives random, crazy directions to do and by the last page, the whole book is destroyed! As I know myself, I want everything :P I have to contain myself and my wallet.



I played a true Filipino and arrived at Angela's party 40 minutes past 6PM , when the party had meant to start. At first everyone was just sitting in the backyard chilling out and it was a little quiet but after the food was ready and blessed, things started livening up. After getting devoured my many moquitos, Ana and many of us decided to go inside and chill around in the living room and whatnot. Two of the other guests had brought in a guitar and were playing in the kitchen, while me and Ana were on the Mac [I want one!] Ana asked to go on because she wanted to look someone up on Youtube. She searched Napon Pintong and declared that one of the guys in the kitchen resembled him. We eventually found out, thanks to Resyl, that it was him and a friend, Noel! We were excited at this point. We went through introductions and ended up sitting in the kitchen as we got a little mini-show. They played through song requests, freestyles, and old school music and it was all great! I must admit they are very talented!! :)

http://www.youtube.com/nap3s



He played some of my favorite songs : Nice and Slow and You Remind Me by Usher :)