LOL. Finals Are Ovaa!!

So..never leave me alone. It may lead to violent, tragic thoughts like wanting to get into a car accident on the way home from the mall. Because in that situation, maybe God will give me another chance. I'll be in a hospital bed and old friends I've drifted from will come back caring, regardless of what I've done to them, how unfair I've been. From there, my new chance would begin and the second they ask me to chill, the "yes!" is already out of my mouth.

Today was the last day of finals - THANK GOD! I finished my Chem final in 10 minutes and drew the following photo in the time to spare. Today was also Band Room Clean-Up which was alright. There were still teachers in the building and we got in trouble like twice for being loud. I guess we really pissed them off this time! haha I don't really care. Afterwards, I got a little upset. I wanted to hang out with you. We are friends and I want to repair our friendship. I regret the bad choices I have made because it pulled apart. Hell yes, I'll admit that I'm jealous you're so close with them! We used to be like that, and I used to be at your place every day. They're definitely more entertaining though.. I was never much of a show. And now, you guys make plans, and I really don't have anyone. I'm the loner nowadays and I basically go home every day. It's my fault though, and it kills me. It didn't effect me right away because I randomly got picked up by Jae, Alo, and Joriz to play volleyball. We played along with a group of RU kids, which was fun. When I got home, my parents were getting ready to leave for the mall and I went with. Tha'ts when everything hit me. I was aggravated with myself. I was lonely and bitter. Kind of like an old man, you know? The guilt trips came rushing back, and I don't blame them. I have been such a bad friend, not only to you, but to everyone. I'm so sorry, again.

Last Night, I Dreamt Of Burrito

Sundays never live up to their calm and relaxing standard that everyone holds it to. I woke up this morning craving a breakfast burrito from Taco Bell. Yeah, my dream was weird. Not only that, but I woke up to a swollen left eye. Apparently right before I slept, I handled my guinea pig and then rubbed my eye. It makes sense because before I fell asleep, my eye itched. I thought sleep would cure it, but I was wrong. I woke up looking like my mother when she has allergic reactions to soy milk. I took a shower this morning, and the cold water helped relieve the swelling. Church today was alright. I jsut hate knowing that I have to do work afterward for Monday. Today, that meant studying for English. As procrastination usually takes its toll on me, I went with the Papa to see Karate Kid. As weird as it sounds, I teared at one point in the movie. Jackie Chan was crying! AND on top of that..he looked like my papa! It made me laugh a few times because I would look over to my left at my father and see the scary resemblance. Geez, the production company could have at least warned us they were letting Jackie Chan play my papa. lol Photo is of all the papers of my doooom.

Happy BSing!

Here I am, grateful for the end of another day. This has been giving me more hours to close my eyes, and make up for lost hours. Today was cool. It was the first day of finals, and my first two were easy. First perdio I have SAT Prep, so I just chilled this morning. Then, I had French, where as I didn't know anything because my teacher hasn't been here for two weeks. Therefore, I BSed much of my French 2 Final :D I went the the festival with my parents tonight. I may have seemed anti-social, just sitting there, but I just didn't want to go in general. Plus, I was too cold to try to talk to anyone, so I texted haha. Today, I also went on a sort of date with him. we walked to Lil urgers in Nutley and then Stuffed Cupcakes - somethign I've wanted to do for a while. Photo is of the cupcake we got. :D

Stressing, But Everything Will Be Okay

I could've cut school today, but I think I liked my decision to stay. I haven't seen the guy I love for days and it was very relieving to feel those soft lips again. The day itself actually wasn't too bad. The fact that everyone cut for Senior Cut Day made all my classes empty, as if it were a half day! I can't deny the amount of stress I felt today though. Even though it is the end of the year, I feel like the work keeps piling on to get ready for the "big finish". Unfortunately, part of the reason why I had to stay today was because I was thrown the responsibility of making sure that the guard knew the 3rd number for tomorrow. That responsibility sat on top of all of these Finals Reviews that I have to get started on! After school, I got some food with the love and honestly, just being with him calmed me down a lot. Practice at 4 didn't go bad at all, considering that I got the DVD from All-States from Jeffrey to use as reference. Smart, right?! lol. I came home and hopped in the shower. It was much needed after a day feeling the gross humidity! Fresh out of the shower, clothed and all, I get a phonecall from Jae saying they have a surprise for me. They stopped by and I came down. As I'm walking towards the car, Alo, Joriz and Jae bust out with water balloons in their hands and start throwing!! What the haaiill, man! Right after my nice shower too!! I guess it's a new kind of love from friends. haha. Photo is of my SAT Prep assignment. It asked me to put a name and so I was referred to as "Nigg" for a good 10 slides.

We'll Be In The Green Soon

I'm not going to let little arguments ruin us. I'm not. The weather was really nice today, but a bit hotter than I favor. Today made me realize that we are heading towards the end of this year so quickly, it's kind of too fast. Finals are in about a week and I haven't even started my final exam reviews. I have a leadership seminar to attend and I am just screwed. I will tell myself over and over that I can do this and I can. I've dealt with the end of the year for a good 9 years so why should I stop now? Ahh "The trick is to keep on breathing" because I know that once summer rolls around and we are in the safe green-zone, everything will be good and running smooth. Photo is of the walk home. Every time I turn onto Newark Ave. by Claara Mass, I can't help but admire the way the shadows of the trees pattern and trail down the sidewalk. It so beautiful in person. It reminds me of those perfect summer days. :)