Only For A Minute

The best part of my day happened about an hour ago - and it was only a minute. Last night I asked my brother around 1AM if he could drive me to Jacob's place to drop off the 10 or 11 dozen cookies, packaged in a Quaker Oats Variety Pack box, that I made just for him along with the music note bracelet I made. He said no. I tried to make deals with him and bribe him, but it was still a no. He said he would do it tonight. I asked earlier tonight and he said no, so I tried to ask my sister, bribing her as well. No's all across the board, I couldn't do anything about it. Then, my brother says, "Hey Tep, I'll take you to see Jacob if you come with me to Blockbuster." The only distinct thought that ran through my head was "OH-MUH-GAAAAAAAAAAAD. OH-MUH-GAAD!" I was unbelievable happy in that moment and every moment until I got home. Anyways, we drove over there in the midst of the night after finding out that Blockbuster now closes at 11PM and it was already midnight. On quiet Union Ave., I got out of the car and waited at the bottom of the steps, one house down, out of view, box and bracelet in hand. I haw him walking down the step and I began to feel a tingle in my face. Uh, yeah. It's kind of like butterflies in your stomach, but on your face. Don't judge me -_-' I began move frantically in place, as if I were standing on a pile of hot rocks, barefoot. As dark as it was, and as unclear he was to me, I knew well enough this is the person I've missed for 5 whole day. So quickly that I couldn't even pull out a smile first nor say a word, I hugged him tightly. I was so happy and complete, in that moment. We tried to part ways once with a "Goodbye" and "I love you", but I hesitated twice to do so and came back for kisses and hugs. Ah, this is where the significance in my day lays. I

I tried to go out earlier, to Deejay's but the parents said no, and considering how much they've been letting me out lately, I dealt with it. If I don't argue back, they'll keep letting me out :D I ended up cleaning the kitchen a bit and I even got a compliment when Papa came home. Go team. Photo is one of Papa and I which I sent to Jacob as proof I was sitting next to him!

We Saved a Bird Today & I Helped the Rookies

There is something I've always disliked about doing this 365 Project: the nights where you are just plain tired and already in bed and the thought hits you "I still need to post!". A wide range of curses mosh in your head because there is no other choice other than to get up and write it because you need to keep up. But then again, this is why I decided to do this. I put myself to this challenge and of course, I'm not gonna love it all the time. I can't help but feel proud at how dedicated I've been to this.

Today was once again, HOT. This Wednesday was supposed to be ours. Your brother was supposed to go to 6 Flags with the maid and the house would be ours. Unfortunately, he didn't go because it was too hot. I left the house early anyways. You couldn't go out, so I just stayed at the high school where they were having a morning practice for the band. When I found my way there, I saw them on the field so I just chilled out there for a while. I also eventually went inside to chill in the nice, air-conditioned surroundings. When the band had sectionals, I hopped from section to section meeting rookies and even helping out with music. I felt comfortable. Part of me prefers these simple practices that are relaxed and sometimes makes me wonder why I didn't just march flute. Then again, I know where my passions are and where my perfectionist qualities come into character - guard. Even with rehearsal tonight, I can't help but think that maybe I wasn't meant to exactly be a captain. I like perfecting myself solely because I find it easier. I feel bad when I try to help someone and they have to deal with my chaotic mind. I don't say it to sound self-righteous. I'm just more of the introvert who is better at working on their self. But my own characteristics are not going to get the best of me and prevent me from being who I want to be. As wrong as it sounds, I want to be someone else. I can grow tired of being the shy introvert. I want to be a leader. At HOBY, they told us hey, even if your not a leader, pretend to be one. Pretend to be strong, organized, and set. That's what a leader does, anyway. So, for the greatest sake of this guard, I am going to pretend to be a great captain and do the best that I can. If I pretend enough, I will be.

Today I also got to "have our day". It may not have been what we wanted: a whole house to us, but it was anything. and I was willing to settle for "anything" just to be with you. I stayed for a while - I even got to watch you play Drake's Fortune. It was best that I didn't play because even you said that the part you were at was nerve-racking. Unfortunately, those nervous feelings and paranoia of getting caught at your house enveloped me and I could not help but leave early/on time to get out of there. As it turns out, she didn't come home for another hour! Just my luck -__-' Photos are of Roland ringing me and my Medium Graham Central Station and of my visit this morning.

My Biffle Is Home And I PWND

Of course, there is this wild excitement in the fact that a best friend of mine is back in town. There are people in my life, in my heart, who will always hold a superior importance. Unfortunately, they are not always physically around. I am so grateful for the people who keep my heart and mind together and still are around, but it was like laying a bluer hue on my skies when I finally saw Jon for the first time today while we sought for each other on the phone. We were lost on streets not too far away from each other and he was mistaking another for me with a "Is that you in red?!" When I finally saw him at the corner, he came running and my arms were outstretched, begging for a tight, reuniting hug. I couldn't comprehend in my mind, that this guy was really here. We took our walk around and caught up on life - even though we've been talking the whole time online. We took pictures and sat on the turf , chilling out. Then we walked what seemed like miles in the heat. We tried to walk to Chan's house, but she wasn't home. Then, we went to Walgreens. We walked around more, only to find ourselves back at Walgreens. My new sandals from last night were too tight and I was beginning to blister as my feet are now. So, we bought $2.99 flip flops! Gah, what a relief to my feet! Later, we made our way to Kendrick's for the BBQ. At first, based on what I was told about it, I thought there would be drinking and whatnot. I already had my mind mentally set on how I would handle that situation. As it turns out, I spend the afternoon with some great people, some new and some old. My awkwardness wasn't too bad because frankly, Jon was there, too. He and I were both kind of new to hanging out with everyone, so even if I did feel awkward, there was still him I could talk to. The night went to well, socially and in general. At one point in the afternoon, I played COD for the first time in my life. AND I PWND. Haha just kidding. I felt so proud of myself for killing Byron and Chris a few times. I wanted to tell Jacob about my accomplishments so bad at the time. At another we didn't know what to do, so we walked together towards Nutley to just watch the fireworks. We ended up seeing various displays in the sky around us at the same time. In the Burger King parking lot, we stood to watch the rest of the NHS show. When we walked back, time was trailing around to the point where we had to leave soon. Basically everyone else was sleeping over, but I knew well enough that I couldn't. Plus, I was more concerned on getting home and talking to a certain someone. He definitely wasn't up to par based on the texts we shared. Well, here I am home. But overall, today was amazing. Photos are of Danny and Byron's gel'd up heads! Also, a fireworks pic from my phone. Happy 4th of July, everyone!

15 Parts To A Belated Birthday Gift

Welll..today was cute :) I hope you enjoyed my gift for you..I put alotttaaa thought into it. I figured that since you were getting punched all day by guy friends, it'll be a good change of pace to just give you 15 kisses in a progression :D #1 was a simple kiss on the cheek..and it went on from there. It was fun while it lasted :D haha Look, Kevin came by after school today and I haven''t seen that kid foreverrrr! haha.. eh. my face..is fat. Gotta stop eating so much!

Hot Kisses

Its so hard to get through a school day without you. You came down with a terrible fever the other day and today, I just texted you all throughout school. I couldn't help but wish how I could be there with you and help comfort you. After school, I took up the opportunity to walk over a few blocks to visit and see how you were doing. My decision to do so was made in a heartbeat because it would make up for the 8 hours I have somehow survived without you. I layed down with you and we watched tv, as I felt your hot skin against mine. Honestly, I didn't care if you were sick. I told you that I would always risk getting sick just to be with you; your kisses were just hotter, which was a bit cute. Sick, ut cute. To hug you and jusy lay there watching Cartoon Network was the biggest highlight of my day. Any time I spend with you is the highlight of my day. >> Look how miserable he looks lol