I Should Be In A Bed Sleeping In Ohio!

Good god, today was such a tiring day! We got back last night around 8PM, but that didn't stop me from feeling tired today during school. No one wanted to be suffering through classes or walking through halls. All day I caught myself saying that I should he in a bad in Ohio sleeping! I held strong for most of the day, but I lost it 12th period. My Chem class was supposed to take notes on a PowerPoint Presentation, so the lights were off. That is the first mistake. Then, we never got to the notes. Instead, Mr. Lepo just talked and talked like no tomorrow about random things. So ofcourse, being drowsy from Band Trip, and with lights off, my eyes begin to droop. Right before the bell rang, I flinched and woke up in a startle. It was a little embarrassing, yet funny. After school, jazz band was canceled due to the tiredness of everyone. I actually went over the love's house without the worry and left on time. It was such a beautiful feeling, being able to lay with him again, just relaxing. I haven't seen him in four days, and 2 days was the limit. I made a sacrifice tonight, though I'm not sure if it was a smart one. I found my heart feeling heavier than my body, with the urge to throw up. I am the dramatist; I am not proud. Though, now we webcam and my heart feels at home. Photo is of webcamming.

Better Than Expected

Surprisingly, today worked out better than expected. It kind of bummed me out that we weren't going to just hang out today, but I lived through it. We ended up staying in the high school.. even thoguht Mrs. B left, the band room was still open for the play rehearsal. We hung out with what was left of the band peeps, playing concentration 64, the ABCD slap game, and Shimmy Shimmy. The idea that everything was so low key was amazing :D It was a sad thing to hear that you had to leave when Josh called.. It felt nice just leaning my head on your shoulder as you played guitar, just the two of us in the room. I promised us that I would try my best to not let emotions get the best of me, and I was honest when I said I wasn't upset. Plus, I made the best of it as I walk you out. :D And all the way down the hall, I kissed until we reached the front doors. :D I love you :) Photo's of Joe Salems great lefty/righty works on the board. haha.

Coming To A Stop

Days are so hard without you. The day literally drags on. I even went to the mall and couldn't stop checking my phone.. Decipher my Tumblr posts and my Facebook status updates, and every emotion is revealed. You can be gone for an hour, and my whole life comes to a stop. I can do other things, but my mind isn't clear. You honestly get me through the day. Just being able to text you on good or bad terms allows me to work better than nothing at all!

"Part of me belongs to you. Please don't runaway with it."

Photo's of pair of shorts I bought <3

My Attention To The Irrelevant

I've become more prone to tearing up. Ever since I've been with you, I've become so openly emotional. Goodness, sometimess I can irritate myself! I would never let myself tear up in public, but they just find there way out of my eyes. I've become more sensitive to words and their meaning, even if they don't have any at all. I feel so embarrassed. I can get upset for something so irrelevant. A joke is a joke right? Why should I, so quickly, take offence? It's funny because I kept asking myself that same question over and over again, for the rest of those 40 minutes today. Considering what I've put you guys through, I feel like one little thing bursts the bubble and I'm just gone. My efforts are so sensitive because I'm scared it will all collapse. I don't even know. I'm writing this and I keep shaking my head. I can't put this situation into an understanding. I wish I didn't have to feel these emotions. My attention to irrelevance is so acute. I thought my FB results were funny. They're practically all gay.

You In My Arms

It felt really nice to just spend an afternoon with you. After school, we just hung out in the band room all day and I had no complaints. Our goofy side shone through and I wanted to pop your pimple. I'm just gross like that. haha. I already am aware of these great feelings I have for you and it just make me happy whenI look back on today. We don't need small secret meet-ups in the staircases to have a good day. Most of the time, I had my arms around you and it felt so nice. :) Walking you out of the highschool seemed like the hardest thing in the world, today! So many people were inside the highschool, due to the crappy weather outside. There was no privacy at all! A couple people decided to be jerks and purposely walk by. >.> Tonight's practice really made me feel sore. As I type this, I still feel like my calves are tight and sore. I dread the fact that I will have to do it again tomorrow night. Joy. Oh, we covered Erik's locker in penises via post-its! :D I hope he's not too mad tomorrow! ahah