Officially Missing You

It makes me sad that you weren't here today. I wanted to kiss you so bad this morning after all of yesterday. After not getting that morning text back from you and finding out you weren't in first period from Shalier, I suddenly felt like my day was over. All of the energy I mustered up in the morning for school was gone because usually I save it for you. When I walked into French, period 2, I became so tired and rested my head on my books basically the whole period. I missed you and sometimes the only way to cope is to close my eyes and dream. Anyways, I got through the day somehow, and had nothing to do after wards. Mrs. B wasn't there, so the Mr. Furia was closing up the bandroom. Ana was sick, Jaelynn probably went home, you weren't here, so I went home. The weather was so beautiful today. I really enjoyed walking to the bus stop and home. The breeze was just right with the perfect amount of warmth on my skin. It's nice to come home early once in a while and just enjoy the afternoon itself. Photo is of me fresh outta the shower :D From my Tumblr post, of course.

Live By Quotation

"I want to be able to keep you -us- as happy as we were when you first asked me out"

I never want to be the one to upset you and ruin a day.. But I did also promise to always be open with how I feel, despite how minute or grand the emotion turns out to be. My promise has worked out for better and for worse in separate occasions. Today just upset me so much. I haven't exactly told you in person, but you will probably read this.. Well I was so upset because last week was by far one of the worst weeks. I wanted last week to end so badly because I wanted to forget it a look forward to a better week: this week. I was pulled so far aback from my optimism this afternoon that I just became a bitter person. All I want to do is relax with you alone for a given hour or so. I haven't really been given that opportunity except Friday.. I am stil waiting for that day's opportunity where I get to just lay with you and listen to our breathing and heartbeats. I am technically still upset, but I really want to live up to the quote. I am going to try harder to look on the brighter side of things. You have taken over my heart and priorities. Your happiness is mine, too and I want to maintain stability there. How you have been dealing with me for 5 months - I do not know. I just know that I never want to imagine a life without you. Photo is of the Target Bunny beause I went there tonight. haha