The Most Prominent Feeling

As updated on Facebook, I had a really good day- and it's true! After not having seen the lover for about 2 weeks, he finally was able to get out of the house and come over. It was so heart-relieving to be next to him, playing COD4. Man, I really suck at that game! Early into the afternoon, we left my house and rode to Wendy's for some food. From there on, and everything else we did that day, we had one of the greatest conversations ever. We didn't speak of anything specific the entire time, but it seemed like no matter what we did talk about, conversation was always fresh, lively, and flowing. It seemed like every laugh we shared was so genuine and in the moment. "In the moment" where as there was no other way to go but enjoy what we were doing and who we were with. I didn't have butterflies in my stomach; it wasn't something like that. I'm already well enough comfortable with this guy that even though butterflies are still around, they aren't the most prominent feeling. The most prominent feeling runs through my entire being, knowing in fact that I'm spending time with the love of my life and no matter what I do with him, I am always happy.

It seems that the past while that I have been down and stressed was undone. I've come to realize that he is my major happiness & I am so grateful for that. Photo is of him and his shirt [which I really like] while we were at Wendy's. PS. I got preached to at Target tonight. -_- It was kind of weird to experience it while trying to shop around, but I'm starting to favor the idea of going by the Bible, word for word.

Live By Quotation

"I want to be able to keep you -us- as happy as we were when you first asked me out"

I never want to be the one to upset you and ruin a day.. But I did also promise to always be open with how I feel, despite how minute or grand the emotion turns out to be. My promise has worked out for better and for worse in separate occasions. Today just upset me so much. I haven't exactly told you in person, but you will probably read this.. Well I was so upset because last week was by far one of the worst weeks. I wanted last week to end so badly because I wanted to forget it a look forward to a better week: this week. I was pulled so far aback from my optimism this afternoon that I just became a bitter person. All I want to do is relax with you alone for a given hour or so. I haven't really been given that opportunity except Friday.. I am stil waiting for that day's opportunity where I get to just lay with you and listen to our breathing and heartbeats. I am technically still upset, but I really want to live up to the quote. I am going to try harder to look on the brighter side of things. You have taken over my heart and priorities. Your happiness is mine, too and I want to maintain stability there. How you have been dealing with me for 5 months - I do not know. I just know that I never want to imagine a life without you. Photo is of the Target Bunny beause I went there tonight. haha

Equivalent To It's Tomorrow?

So... I believe I just finished baking 9 dozen cookies, half of which are chocolate chip, while the other half is of double chocolate chunk. Sounds tasty, huh? Typically, I stop eating by 8:30 everyday, but baking tonight made me go against that standard -_-' I needed to taste some to make sure! As far as I'm concerned them shet be goood! :3 I feel redeemed from the last bake sale I actually tried to bake something..we won't discuss that here, though. Amongst tonight, I also realized that no day will be as great as the one before or equivalent to it's tomorrow. This revelation can play out to be something positive or negative. More or less, a individual person's level of optimism determines that part. In scenario one, you have a bad day. The worst thing you could possibly imagine happens- the nightmare you want to wake up from. Tomorrow won't be as bad, that is something you can count on. It is impossible for the same day to repeat itself twice in a lifetime. Scenario 2 accounts for the individual greed for happiness we each posses. The best thing you could possibly ever imagined has happened today. You are on Cloud 9 and definitely don't want to leave. I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but tomorrow won't be as epic. Happiness in tomorrow is only today's after-effect and that spuratic feeling of excitement is no longer present. As much as we can shut our eyes tight and wish, the same day isn't happening twice. This is all life in action. Sorry if I confused you. :] Photo's of sushi I had today with the brah. Nom :D