"I Can't Believe I Did It"

The first lap was a warm up. We walked through the shortcut just to get a taste of it. Second lap, we hopped right into a jog around the entire circular route of Branch Brook Park. Goodness, those swerves and turns seemed never ending. Past the half way point, I began to think to much. I wanted to stop, out of free will, at some points. The pain in my sides were very subtle and never any different as it were minutes before. I constantly reminded myself, "If it hurts the same as it did when we first started, then what's the point of stopping now?" This morning finally taught me a better example of Nike's motto, "Just Do It" Sometimes, I thought too hard, but it was pointless. I was only holding myself back. Before weaknesses could get the best of me, I was back at our starting point of my sister's boyfriend's car. I even pushed myself to do a little circle around the car before stopping - I was so proud of myself. I got through the entire route without stopping. When I stopped though, my legs almost collapsed in. Finally, I took a warm-down walk around the shortcut with the sister. We actually had good conversation this morning, discussing school and other matters. I came home, took a shower and had breakfast. For the rest of the day, I found myself in a car with my brother driving to Philly for business matters. Bored and unwilling to stay at home with creepy crawlers, I tagged along. It was fun for a good portion, finding ourselves in settings from I Am Legend. Cons solely involved getting lost and my brother;s GPS being of no help at all, with such a lag. Today was good and I'm proud of what I did this morning. Now to do it again tomorrow - maybe. Photo is of a familiar setting which was also nearby the part of the movie where Sam runs into the dark building.

"I've Watched Myself Become the Bitch"

..So I've wanted to write this post for about a year and a half now.. Over the past year I have learned to accept my feelings and allow myself to show my anger and sadness once in a while. We're all human. In the process, I told myself that I didn't want to watch myself "become the bitch" and so here I am. A little upset, I have become the asshole I didn't want to be. Isn't there some saying that explains how we end up becoming what we hate most? I used to be this really, really nice, polite girl who gave respect to everyone. Now, I will admit that I am more comfortable with who I am, but it's not always in control. Sometimes I get carried away with jokes and cross the border onto insult. I'm really going to try to fix myself, and hold back, for the sake of my own morality. And hey, my optmism will get there..eventually. Oh joy, Olga has made my blog two pictures and counting! haha He's in her "obtuse-fuckin' corner" lmfao

Morris Knolls 84.95

I'm actually surprised about our score today..going up 5 points is pretty damned good. Frankly, I kind of thought the show was not so great-but maybe that just me. I will always love the bus rides to and from competitions.. they are just too great. XD On the way there, we took some pictures and immitated Mrs. Miskovich and alll of her facial expressions. Jaelynn does it best! Hrmm...on the way back was the period to be obnoxiously loud! I think that..because we finally got the name of some kid from Montville, Jaelynn and I were hyper. As soon as we hit the road, the two of us began to sing, at the top of our lungs, to just about every song that came on the radio! We didn't know the words to most of them, but thats where our amazing mumbling and humming came in! haha We should make a band. And Ana, if you are reading this. I AM NOT CLINGY.

LOL..let's hope Jaelynn doesn't see this.

[editted new picture just for Jaelynn. She threatened to hit me with a sledgehammer or something]