Hold Strong For Your Heart

So I am laying in bed right now with my head full of curls for tomorrow. It more or less happened out of pure boredon as I began to curl my hair with the straightener. I guess tomorrow will be a girly day haha.. As for today, the goal was to hold strong and be happy and optimistic. Goal scored. I held together and managed a good day with you.. The unfortunate part of today was you going to the ms right after school with sean.. I felt that.. Having such a good day called for spending ime well together after school too. ofcourse, I promised to stay strong. I cant pull you away from plans you make with friends. I had practice anyways.. The kind where we just BSed the whole time and was pointless. You said that to keep you around, all I had to do was say the magic words. I pulled myself together and insisted you to go.. I felt like it was part of the change where I cant kill Myself over the facts. It was a hard thing to say no and push you away like that but I reel like I did good today. We better still be hanging ou soon my love! Alone. Photo will be of waiting at the bus stop today.

Way Too Freaking Long

Today was interesting. It's a first day on a new change of pace. I'm going to stop being negative and all that jazz. There was a slight downfall, but we've gotten through :D The days better now. Mid-terms today were ridiculous. English was way too freaking long and the one for Wind Ensemble actually took the whole period! D: It was never this hard either! booo lol yay weekend

"I've Watched Myself Become the Bitch"

..So I've wanted to write this post for about a year and a half now.. Over the past year I have learned to accept my feelings and allow myself to show my anger and sadness once in a while. We're all human. In the process, I told myself that I didn't want to watch myself "become the bitch" and so here I am. A little upset, I have become the asshole I didn't want to be. Isn't there some saying that explains how we end up becoming what we hate most? I used to be this really, really nice, polite girl who gave respect to everyone. Now, I will admit that I am more comfortable with who I am, but it's not always in control. Sometimes I get carried away with jokes and cross the border onto insult. I'm really going to try to fix myself, and hold back, for the sake of my own morality. And hey, my optmism will get there..eventually. Oh joy, Olga has made my blog two pictures and counting! haha He's in her "obtuse-fuckin' corner" lmfao