Captain? I Am & Swimming? I'm Up For It

Today felt like our first legitimate practice. I haven't done anything lately, so I found myself breathing heavily and a little out of shape. A new girl came today, and teaching her with the other four of us went the closest it could be to "smoothly". I feel like I'm adapting more into this role as captain because giving commands or leading flag basics doesn't make me too nervous anymore. It still does, but at a much more comfortable level. Although I miss a few people who are gone and a new girl quit today, I'm still moving forward. In my role, I aspire to be the best leader I can be and give these girls the greatest experiences as a guard member. I want them to feel what I've felt in my years experiences. Sure, there are times when I hate it, but I know without it, I'm slightly lost. The new girl has a boyfriend in the band and I wished for myself, "Dang I wish my boyprend was here, too!"

Later, after practice, I thought he wasn't coming by. While I was in the chorus room, I turned around and there he was standing in the middle room! Anything else on my mind such as guard, practices, or friends completely left my conscience. My mind dropped into a state where my one and only goal was to get over there and hug him so tightly. It was the same feeling as from last night and I loved it. We ended up going swimming at Deejay's house with Ana and Emily which was fun, to say the least. I like this idea of hanging out altogether. I mean, based on my views of today, it worked out. Maybe this is possible. Photo is of a flag design we might need, considering how our instructor had to quit. We're on our own.

Moderation & Stability

I feel like good days come in moderation. Sometimes you can't just live a straight life of perfection and happiness. To have up you must have your downs. In a select few cases, the lower the low means the higher the high. There is something about finding resolve with you in our arguements that makes me fall in love with you all over again and then some. This is why I tend to say we are stronger than before , after an arguement. The moderation in these past dew days was good. I long experienced the greatness of my Respected friendships, and today I explored the greatness of our love. I love spending my afternoons with you.. You make me feel so whole for a few 2 or 3 hours.. Whrn I go home afterwards, there is a feeling of satisfaction , but not the same wholeness. Then again, the sound of your voice resonating in my ears through the phone brings me the closest I can ever get to you so late in the day.. So how about that week nirvana? Lets start again. This time we can go for two weeks and on :) photo will be of broccoli. I made dinner for the first time tonight with the help of my moma.. I feel proud. Were getting alomg better these days. :)