HOBY Weekend, Here I Come!

Well, that was quite a difficult night. So tonight has consisted of packing/procrastinating for the HOBY Leadership Seminar I'm going to tomorrow. I mean hey, taking my sweeeet time is how I do it! I know that it was out of her best intentions to make sure I'm prepared, but telling me to bring this and that or asking if I brought this or why I haven't or won't bring this gets pretty annoying. It was at the point where I felt like I couldn't pack myself because I couldn't concentrate.Today was the end of my stressing this week, although I know it starts back up as soon as I get home on Sunday. I've looked up the Facebook group for this organization, and honestly, it looks pretty fun! The people look chill, though I am well aware the same, exact people won't be there this weekend. I set a goal for myself to be outgoing this weekend. I can't be afraid to publicly speak because the for the rest of my life, no matter what career I pursue, it will be a vital ability. Photo is of me in the fitting room. I got that dress :D Hrmm.. I might be MIA for the weekend with posts considering the seminar and no wifi.. haha.

Once In A Lifetime

Goodness. Where do I start?! To wake up this morning, the first thing coming into mind is "Holy crap, I'm competing at Nationals today." I didn't feel too nervous that morning, until half way through the bus ride. A few hours away, I began to think about it: this stadium is huge! The audience will probably be packed! The butterflies in my stomach twitched. Pulling into the parking lot of the Naval Stadium, I found myself saying "I don't want to perform guys, can we just not?" I know how much of a lie it is; I was more excited than scared. This was a chance in a lifetime to perform at Nationals, and whether we did good or bad, I was completely grateful! Warm-up was freezing, but I tried to ignore that fact. Deep breaths were taken in hopes of taming my excitement and lungs. One of the most thrilling parts other than the performance was standing at the gate, with the field in clear view. I was ready to march on with my chin up high, ready to dominate. As we heard the last band's last note followed by massive applause, my heart nearly skipped a beat. I gathered up my equiptment and gave out my last best wishes to the band. Setting up on the field, I stayed joyful and frolicked across with Jaelynn. haha Standing at opening set, at attention, I was sucking in air and blowing it out as much as possible. My heart was beating 3x faster than usual. Not gonna lie, I glanced at the jumbo tron a couple times. That screen is amazingly huge. It was funny seeing familiar faces up there! Despite a few imperfections with tossing and whatnot, that was the best I have ever felt, coming off the field this entire season! The tempos were decent, performance was amazing, and I was proud to march Belleville. By awards, we were cheering our lungs out, proud to be who we are. We placed 16th of 21. The number sounds bad, but we beat most 2A bands, including 2 open bands. Our score went up and I also found out that our guard came 7th in the Nation. Hearing that, nothing else mattered :) A once in a lifetime chance..used to its best extent.

The Good Kind Of Nervous

My heart felt so sure today. I texted you all day and we both agreed on the nervous, yet excited feelings we were both feeling. To get through 12 periods seemed like more hell than usual. The anticipation was donated to our meeting in the far staircase after school to ask an important question. We both understood what it was, which is why we were so nervous. I also had another question to ask because a day prior, you almost answered my question. As of this 30th of September, I am going out with you. I don't think I have ever felt so good with the idea of who I was with, no matter what others dare say.