The Good Kind Of Nervous

My heart felt so sure today. I texted you all day and we both agreed on the nervous, yet excited feelings we were both feeling. To get through 12 periods seemed like more hell than usual. The anticipation was donated to our meeting in the far staircase after school to ask an important question. We both understood what it was, which is why we were so nervous. I also had another question to ask because a day prior, you almost answered my question. As of this 30th of September, I am going out with you. I don't think I have ever felt so good with the idea of who I was with, no matter what others dare say.

Begging

This Tuesday was full of anticipation. By that night, I was begging for the next day to come. My heart was set on where it was heading, and this time I had no doubt. From what I can remember, having practice inside the auditorium that night was fun. We began to learn "disco stick" work for our show. Basically, we are spinning a flagpole without the flag. Joy. hahah

Frankly

Frankly, the days have been going slow. Frankly, I have been using this word too much. I really think I regret drinking that Jolt during Saturday's competition- on top of all the caffeine that's already in my system. Tonight I went to Barnes and Noble to do homework and it simply wasn't working out. I hate sitting by Starbucks at the tables, it's not comfy enough!! The farthest I got with my homework was reading the 7-page short story. My eyes were crossing simultaneously with the drooping of my eyelids. The coffee had absolutely no effect and rather made me feel worse. Homework is such a bitch.. Oh and look what I found in my Lit book today! Mudkip! XD

Oh Sunday.

Sunday Sunday Sunday. So when I got home last night, I texted a couple friends for a while and ended up passing out on my parents' bed. I woke up this morning with a very sore, achy feeling. I'm going to take the wild guess that it was because I slept on my stomach with three pillows under me, in the most awkward position. Hell, I didn't care; I was too tired to, anyways! I woke up at 11:30AM and hopped straight into the shower. My entire family was yelling at me for doing so because we had to be at church by noon. They were simply saying I wasn't going to have time! Boy, did I prove them wrong. I took a shower, got dressed, and we got to the church with 5 minutes still to spare. Church was boring as usual. When we got home, we ate and then headed to the mall. I had bought a referral for my contact and a bag I've been eyeing for quite a while now. Tonight, I went to the movies with the Sentinas, the Bonghanoys, Fetus, Ana, and the Pinanos. Goodness, thats like all siblings! ..haha me, Ana, and Fetus might as well be siblings. We saw a guy that looked like the older version of Fetus andI just had to point him out. The movie we saw was 9. It was okay, but I expected better. I'm dreading tomorrow for the sake of school, but there is one good aspect to it. Practice afterwards and getting to see Jacob :D Oh, and tonight was the first time I've ever had a Jones' drink! Flavored Banana Strawberry, it was good. The caps are the most amazing part!

BBBBBBEEELLVILLE HIGH SCHOOLLL MARCHINGG BANND!!

Today Belleville had its first competition of the season :D To be honest, it felt like a good one! [In my opinion at least] Unfortunately, we got 4th place out of 7 other bands [including Nutley >:0]. In turn, though, this simply acts as greater motivation to push ourselves and be amazing! The day was pretty long, too! Somehow, I had forced myself to wake up at 7AM and get ready. We practiced from 8:15AM-11AM. The practice felt really good and we were getting a lot done. The show itself was looking 10x better and everyone was excited. After wards, we had an hour or so to get food and come back to change and prepare. Jaelynn's friend, Erik, came along. I had never really got to talk to that kid, but I've realized that he's pretty cool. Apparently, he's coming to every competition, so this should be good lol. The bus ride was pretty fun.. After the show, we got back and I was BEAT. Unloading the truck, I still felt some energy flowing through, but I knew it was going to run dry soon. By the time I was at Maryanne's house with Ana and Jaelynn, I was dead tired. It might've been the Jolt I had that day..lmao. I was so pumped that day though..it got me hoping for next weekend to come a little bit faster! South Brunswick, here we come!

Initiative

Take the initiative to fix a problem. That is what I did tonight. When we tried to hang out today, it just wasn't feeling right. So I called you tonight and we talked it out; complications were brought to common undstanding, and I know where your heart is.

Goodness, will Belleville band ever have a good football game?! Tonight we versed against West Essex HS and the visit was horrible. The opposing city was so rude. As we marched by in our blue block, "Boo's" were being thrown out from the bleachers as well as a half-full can of Arizona Iced Tea. Prior to the game, it was announced that their band was treating us to a snack and drink during the third quarter to socialize as well. third quarter came around and by that time, Mrs. B couldn't take it anymore. Our plan was to eat their food and leave. A little bit of socializing did take place, but so did a lot of controversy! People from the bleachers would pass by as we walked, purposely shoving into us and acting smart. Its so funny how people can be so immature!

The Small Period

For what it's worth, I'm really happy where I'm at right now. I'm currently content with the life I have, enjoying the people I have.

It upsets me after school when I can't stay the whole time because it's what I'm used to. I never bother to catch the bus because I know I have practice later on. Today, I had to leave after school to revisit my doctor to follow up from Tuesday.. It took us like an hour to actually get there because my parents stopped by so many places beforehand. It's so ridiculous because once we got there, the wait was about 5 minutes; we went inside, she checked on my Tetanus shot as negative, and we were out within the next minute! Afterwards, I met up with Shannon and Jaelynn at Drug Fair Walgreens, where they were purchasing the makeup for this year's colorguard uniforms.

The small period after school and before I left to the doctor's is something that struck me the most. I met up with Jacob in the front and just sat and talked with him. We talked for only about 10 minutes, but it was an enjoyable 10 minutes. =]

[Oh and as for the picture, it really wasn't her birthday. She just wrote it for fun, to get comments haha]

Nights Like This

I look foreward to 3rd period, now. Because as I talk to you tonight, it makes me anticipate the fact that I can see you tomorrow.

Classes today were boring as usual. I ended up falling asleep in US History, watching a cheap, old movie about the Declaration Of Independence. Wind Ensemble was a big highlight, because Mrs. B wasn't there and so we all hung out for a good 40 minutes. That class is everything I love; moreover because of the people. When ever the bell rings at 2:31PM, I feel so accomplished to know that I got through the entire day! I broke up with Fred today. We're still friends, but to be honest, I can't be in a relationship where I just don't feel the same. It is, in all honor, rude to continue under false meanings. Practice after school was brutal. It felt like it was never going to end. Resetting sets was all we did, as rookies could not even get the work right. Tonight is the ultimate highlight of my day. Texting certain people makes my smile widen farther than possible and it makes my heart thump through my skin. Nights like this are something I can get used to. :)

I've Found You.

I feel like my whole world has cleared up. Tonight brought around the most heart opening conversations that I should have had a few months back. I finally realized why it wasn't working out. Our status is only meant to be kept at a level of friendship at most. You told me that you're heart beated faster every time you saw me. I couldn't take it and told you my honest thoughts. I was mentally lost in this relationship and my heart wasn't beating as fast. I finally acknowledged what does make my heart race though. My smile gets bigger as this person replies to me right now. The fullest of moons can't even beat the brightness of my smile in this dark room. As you said, best night ever.

Oh, I went to my pediatritian today for a physical. All sophmores are required to get one this year, so today was my day. It was so awkward how they made me change into a medical gown.. I also got three shots. D: Two boosters and one Tetanus shot. Apparently it now looks like I have Tetanus because i also got bit by a mosquito tonight at practice. >.>

Plain

Band today was as usual: the guard does nothing while we all learn new drill. Its so amazing how me and Jaelynn can come up with some of the most randomest tricks out on the field. We made up to flips and will probably be making more! My feelings were still uneven.

Where's My Doubt At Now?

My feelings between this morning and tonight, right now, have a bigger difference. This morning, my doubts were at a greater high than the day before. I wasn't sure if I was enjoying this or if I should just drop it. Throughout the day I have talked to various, various people about it and have gotten some terms settled. As far as I'm concerned, things should be taken slow right now if I want to make the best out of this. Anyways, today I tagged in Clifton with Rey, Ana, and Jaelynn. I love this group. We stood outside Stop&Shop about a half hour earlier than we were supposed to and ended up making a load of money!! Time went by faster as we greeted people, cracked jokes, sang, and begged. We learned that Clifton people can be rude jerks! It's quite worse than how Nutley treats us! GAWD. rude. As for this upcoming week, I can beg all I want, and I will still have to endure through school. It's so boring, but what can we do? Oh, and Hi, Michael. lmfao.

Still

So today I had practice from 10-1PM and practice actually went by faster than I had expected it to! It wasn't a hardcore practice or anything, but things definitely got done. Afterward, I hit it off to BK in Nutley with Joe, Fred, Jae, Ana, and Jonathan. We ate and what not, and then went to the park nearby. We literally stayed there for about 5 hours.. a lot of things can happen if five hours! For example, a bitchy mother can accuse you of detouring her childrens' playtime; you could get your phone stolen and find out that an 11 yr old girl in a pink shirt took it, while getting it back; and do various challenges of obstacles. From what I can add up, the day went good.

It's still wierd..I think about it in the shower and still try to convince myself that I'm not single.. I don't know.. the idea will hit me eventually and I'll be happy with it.

Officialy With.

Today made it official. I could put up the date here, but thats too cliche. Rey laughs about how we should've made it yesterday, so we could share dates/months. haha..as far as feelings go, the update from friendship status doesn't feel tooooo different. Ofcourse it makes me feel happier, but I'm not surprised by hugs from behind or intertwining hands. Maybe it is because of my loving relationship with Rey..haha I love my gay friends. XD I'm not sure, but I guess it portrayed "practice", allowing me to feel comfortable with the switch over. As I thought about it for the past two days, the feeling didn't fully hit me until earlier today during classes. Whenever I thought about it, my stomach felt butterfly-ey and brought a smile up. I also noted that it's strange telling myself that I'm not single anymore. It's just been so long, that I got used to the term! Well, from now till whenever, I can only hope for the best.

So We Lost - What Else Is New?

Belleville against Bloomfield today..we lost. ofcourse. haha

The day was quite interesting.. I wasn't sure if I felt pissed off or happy by the end of it. I was very content at the football game because it is my favorite out of all of them. I know so many people from there that it brings a good feeling to see a lot of familiar faces. I sort of got pissed off at myself because of our performance, but what the hell. It's just a football game. I'll work harder this upcoming week. Our first competition is next Saturday! Oh goodness! Feelings of a controversial happiness came over me, as we got back from the game. Questions were being asked and things were being assumed. It was sort of funny. Oh, here's somehting from Per 1 Health Class. haha

Helium Highs

-is brushing teeth-

Wow. I can't believe I finished my homework early!! I started around 8 for some reason..It might be because I have no life. just kidding.

For the world's information, I do have a life. I spent the day after practice at Wendy's with Ana! haha We ate our little value menu meals and sucked on the helium of a select few balloons. [the ones we could get off the backs of chairs anyway] Recorded, we sounded like completely different people. Along with helium, is our declaration of seats. We officially own one of the booths due to our markings on the table, by accident. We used sharpie on the balloons to draw faces, and it didn't like to dry. Therefore, what ever surface it came in contact with, the ink smudged on. By the time we left, we were responsible for various black splotches all over the table. OH. There's some girl there now, dressed as Wendy. She laughed at us while we sucked on helium and gave us little mints. She also provided us with our own balloons! :D

In school, I took over the board and recreated some of Natalie Dee's hilarious works!

Just A Party!

So I am on my phone right now in feel of how tired today has made me. School itself was a long day. Afterwards, we had guard practice outside on the field. Many of us had not been aware, so we were all practicing in our school uniforms! It was horrible. The amount of sweat to begin with was already at a high and practice only made it worse. Just A Party was nonetheless fun, though! Mainly, I hung out with Abby and Fred [Jonathan]. Its nice to walk about all night with someone's arms around you, as well as your own around them.. fun haha. It was a pretty chill night. Not too many people were around, but we still made a good time out of it! Unlike other years, I personally wanted to come home around 9 because I was so tired and still had hw! So now as I lie here, I can sleep nicely, knowing I had a good day and hw is done. The only thing now is to look forward to tomorrow. XD woot. Bloomfield Game is coming up!

Fatiguee!

Today has been entirely too tiring! [Well, tonight I should say] It's only about a week into school and I've already been procrastinating. I mean, I do my homework, it juyst takes me a good while to finish. Practice was good today, as we got to fix drill and what not. Standing in the front was just as fun. I'm still kind of upset for dropping my Honors Chem class, but I'm really liking my new one. Tonight my brother and I were looking for clothes that he like and how they wouldn't fit him. It's pretty funny to have a big brother who bodybuilds.

JC Penny Catalog, For The Win

So today.. a Sunday.. my parents pissed my off at the mall today. Well, moreover, it was just my mom. Her stubbornnes and inability to listen is such a killer. It makes me mad when negativity is the first thing that she thinks of, and thats where her opinion stays. Well anyways, today I got a small sketch done and it made me proud. Sometimes I get scared that I'll lose my artistic ability over the long periods of time I don't do anything. My inspiration photo came from a JC Penny catalog. There was one model that seemed very extraordinary, feature-wise, giving me the biggest urge to draw her.

Rain Rain in Passaic

Today was our very first football game against Passaic. Of course we lost, but that was not the highlight of my day. It rained yesterday, during the game. I would've been bad enough to perform pregame and just sit in the stands in the rain, but guard had to practice first and second quarter. Then we ate. Our flags were soaked and no one wanted to be there. Its such a shame that we couldn't even get anything done. We couldn't even get through the first number! It was above all, ridiculous. After eating, we returned back to practice for the rest of the game. Egh.

After football games is always better. We all walked to Wendy's where we usually chill after games. We stayed about a couple of hours and it was pretty fun. A few messes were made, and everyone was arm-wrestling Jonathan. haha.. I ate from Fetus's frosty as well as Roland's. I'm such a fatty haha.

Now At 2 Academic Classes

Yayyy I finally got my schedule changedd!!! Today I went right after school to the guidance councelor. I had only asked if my slip was in there and if I should wait till next week, but she found out that it was about Wind Ensemble and told me to take a seat. I ended up staying a whole hour up to 3:30 after school. It was so hectic because with certain classes, it seemed impossible to fit my schedule in. As it turns out, I had to sacrifice my Chemistry H class to get it worked out. It kills me a little inside, because I was actually enjoying Mr Doldi's class 3rd period. Apparently now I have it period 12, and the only people I know is Joe and Daniel. It doesn't sound very exciting. I'm just glad I got Wind Ensemble in. :D

I start Monday yay.

Practice In The Cold And Rain

Day three, and the day still seems to drag! I bet it's my schedule. I'm in a mood of anticipation, waiting to receive that yellow slip during first period, allowing me to go to guidance. The past two mornings have disappointed me, as I receive nothing. After school, begins my favorite part of the day. Chilling in the band room waiting for practice to start and just being with everyone. We constantly laugh and this is the part of the day that keeps me smiling! band nerd fo life. yeah whatever. hhahaha that term is so corny.. "band nerd" wooooahaahhhh..wooo.

I came home tonight after practicing in the dark, cold, rainy weather until 8. [It was freezign cold tonight and I was outside in shorts and a shirt! I wanted a sweater T.T] I felt like a scavenger searching for food. I was so hungry! I've only thought about it now, but that was just about the only meal I had today. I didn't have breakfast really, I have ziti for lunch (just enough), and then came my actual dinner of Pansit. :D I lvoe how my Lola cooks.. its deliciouss!!

It Looks Deep

Day two of school started out lame. My alarm went off at 6:30 and I didn't get up until 7:11. My bus comes at 7:25. i don't know how I did it, but I was early to the bus stop. As the day went on, I got better and felt even better when I finally had classes with the people I love. I sucks that I don't have classes with some people until per. 11, which is basically the end of the day. I'm still getting my schedule changed around and I'm still waiting to get to actually see my counselor!

After school, I returned to the band room just to chill as I always do before practice. I changed into normal clothes and came ouut to find that we got a brand new marimba! Mike and Shalier were putting it together as someonf us messed around with the buxes it came in. Me and Roland hopped into a super large rectangulat box that just alowed us to sit comfortably. Our amazing friends decided to close the top of the box and proceed to shake it lef tto right and slowly tip it down sideways. We were laughing the whole time inse, but then they began to lift up the bottom of the box. Overreacting jokingly, we begin to scramble in fear outside of the box. I forgot the hazards of it and crawled out with all my might. I ended up gouging my foreare from an industrial sized staple that was opened up on the cardboard. I also came out with some rugburn that still doesn't feel too pleasant. ._.

First Day Of Sophmore Year.

I alreayd miss being a Freshman. It was truely more exciting to get lost and have some nice teachers. As much as a first day, today was just normal. I failed to feel that slight giddy feeling at the start of school again. In its place was a tired feeling and slight annoyance with my schedule. I'm missing my favorite class, Wind Ensemble, and have two uneccessary Study Halls. The first few days are never really the most fun. I just finished attempting to organize my new notebooks and folders and came to the conclusion that I hate being organized. Previous years, I have just known myself to use one folder for everything. I know the method is insancely hectic, if not chaotic, but i feel more assured that way. Everythign is in one place and the chances of me leaving a paper in another folder were slimmer. I don't even have all of my notebooks. agh.

Pain In The Buttocks

Summer reading was what everyone was working on today. I'm actually glad I started last week because I ended tonight on a good time. There was no uneccessary rushing or cramming that would ruin my project. I even started earlier this morning, taking various breaks throughout the day. It was such a pain in the butt painting the entire written part on! Letters would turn out too big, letters would smudge together; it was stressful. Things came together though, as I write this, finished with summer reading. :)

Crap, now I have to wake up early tmrw too >.> fml.

Baboooo

So looking back on today, all I can think about was our little trip to Babooo! I feel bad because I ended up pushing back our plans about an hour. My brother got into a movie around 2PM, after I had told him I needed to be at Ana's by 2:30. I didn't get there till 3PM and on the way to Jersey City we hit major traffic..

Finally there, we found our way to Babo where I ordered a good old Honeydew Smoothie with tapioca balls. :D We purchased two orders of curley fries, while I got an order of Sweet & Sour Chicken Dumplings. :D Sitting at the small yet stylish tables, we awaited our food and savored our drinks. DJ apparently does not like tapioca balls. Joe, Ana, and I were the utmost confused, because it's what makes the drink! We left afterwards, and wandered around the city. We took pictures and talked to random asian strangers- it was great. Someone mistook my for a person named "Jackie" and I played along with it. We headed to Newport Mall, which was on the verge of closing. At the pet store, we adored all of the dog breeds, the bunnies, the guinea pigs, and even the random guinea pig inside the rabbit cage! Upon leaving the store, we turned to a gumball machine. Directions claim that if you got the white gumball, you won a free feeder fish. Joe was completely up for it and within two chances we got it! We didn't even have to tell the cashier because our jumping and laughing was obvious enough. So there we had it. A fish in a bag. We proclaimed him Carlos and tried to give him away outside. Finally, a couple with children accepted the random offer and we headed back to Babo for the night. We fattened up once again on drinks. I also ordered a waffle with Nutella filling. ITS AMAZING. we chilled otu there the rest of the night and one of the employees even asked for our help! :D He asked for us to try a new kind of pearl that "popped" when bitten into. It was filled with passion fruit. Excited, we all tried it and gave our opinions. The guy was very chill and I'm looking foreward to coming back to try those pearls with an actual fruit drink!

Random fact: There's a lot of Indians in Jersey City.

Home-Bound Pointless

As far as the first photo goes, it basically defines my morning. I had practice early morning til 1PM and went straight home. I refused various offers to chill and hang out because of my father. I was afraid that he would scold me for going out, like he had already done a few nights ago. As I got home, I came to discover that my parents were sleeping. This automatically leaves me with nothing to do. They want me to stay home, yet when I do, I just sit here and watch TV. It's pointless. So, as I recall, I laid on the couch for a good while, with Obama on my stomach. He smells.

Tonight's only main event was going to the airport with my father to pick up my grandparents. As much as I would have rathered to stay home, he forced me to come with. It was kind of interesting. As we waited at the gate, he shared scar stories from all over his body, earned from an adventurous youth. The only stories I could contribute to the conversation were recent sabre bruises: a blood blister on my right thumb, a bruise on my pinky, and a few more scattered bruises.

Cirque Cirque Summer

So I actually got started on my summer reading today, deciding to stay home. I got invited to go to about three places today, but I stayed put. My father kind of scolded me the night before for always being out of the house after practice had already ended. I've actually thought about what he said, and he is sort of right. I'm planning to go to a friend's house on Monday for a "last day before school party" so I can't spoil anything right now.

I have decided to recreate the back and front covers of the book I'm reading. At first I wanted to do a portrait of the protagonist with descriptive quotes framing his or her face; but I had already read five book and didn't bother to write them down as I went. I'm far too lazy to be looking back into my book for those quotes. :D Reading Cirque all summer has played towards my advantage, seeing that I'm actually willing to read it. I'm on book 5 now and still going strong! A few nights ago, I made some rough sketches of what I wanted to paint, and here's the front cover so far! I am very proud of how it came out..I just hope the teacher has decent lighting to see the color contrasts! Its a dark painting after all. And now all that is left is the back cover..where I also have to write a blurb an a bunch of stuff..bummer.

Oh, How I Crave

Today was decent. After practice, Audrey, Ana , and I went to Wendy's to fill up our stomachs. Today, Aud got her braces removed and I think it's so different seeing her without them! I kind of miss them, to be honest! I'm happy for her though. I've never had the experience or pain of wearing braces, but I've heard so many times that once you get them off, it's like a miracle and you keep licking your teeth! After Wendy's we headed back to the courts. I reallyu don't know how I made it because my legs had done their walking for the day. There, we met up with the Sax section, who were journeying to Coldstone's as a reward for best section. I would have loved guard to win that reward, but we are far from top status. Oh, how I crave a Like It Birthday Cake Remix!! -dies- I'm always up for some good old Coldstone's! I never really tried their shakes, but I've fallen in love with those as well! SO GOOD!

Back at Ana's, we died Marison's hair, but it wasn't the greatest result. For some reason the bleach product wasn't working fast enough and even after the hour we waited, the color still wasn't blonde enough. We dealt with it and continued on. I had to leave half was through, but from what I heard, the purple was dark. Marison wasn't sad, and that was something that made me happy. I didn't want to feel a blame for an accident that just didn't work out. We did the best we could.

Relive The Controller

Today was a good day: nothing too dramatic, nothing too boring. By 3PM I was at the hs for practice with the band. I think Wednesdays will become my favorite days. Its appeals to me more, being with the entire band rather than my section alone. Even though we need work and section time, I still can't deny the feeling I get yelling on the field during drill fighting for enthusiasm. Goodness, some people are just boring when they don't count out loud! :D It makes practice less dreading.

Afterwards was a night at Ana's house which involved eating some good old Fried Fish, or "Prito" and my parents would call it. I really hadn't had fish in a while and it was tasting really good tonight. I have found a liking to the crunchyness of fins! Mmm Tonight also reminded me how long it's been since I've played actual video games! I haven't played a Wii in forever [being that I don't own one] and tonight I made my first attempt. I tried to play Zelda:Twilight Princess. It was fun, but I wasn't doing much. I was mainly trying to adjust to the use of both hands using their own controller. Just as I was getting the hang of it, I had to leave. Bummer.

Forever Captured In Photo

I still get to enjoy waking up at 11AM, even though practice is starting up again. Today I woke up around then and really didn't do much..I stayed home and just chilled out watching TV and eating. I tried to redye my hair, but that kind of failed. The color only got a little darker, but it was all the same. A package came around 1:30 PM and I kind of missed it. I was too busy on the computer with headphones on, until my brother threw somthing at me to answer the door. I rushed outside, picking up the UPS sticker on our door to catch the delivery man to reclaim the package. It was from the Philippines and I asked my mom about it. She said it was pictures from her father's funeral. I got the courage to open up the package [she asked me to] and I asked my brother if he wanted to view them with me. We sat on the couch and looked at the first picture. Immediately, feelings of compassion and sadness flooded me as I saw my Lolo laying in his coffin. The inch that produced tears was the image of my mother in mourning, forever captured in photo. It hurts me so much inside to know that. We looked through photos and we would occasionally crack jokes, pointing out little parts of the photos to keep our spirits a little bit higher, above the water.

Around 3:30PM I was dropped off to the high school where I found Greg chilling out, watching the band practice. We both went inside the school to meet up with Jaelynn, Shannon, and Regina, who were sewing up ripped flag silks. I helped them until we had to leave again from our own practice. Tonight's practice was okaym except I know I wasn't up to par. I was tossing to the side and whatnot, just out of it. Everyone has their days, anyway. After practice, I came home and ate my life away with muffins, bread, and cereal. It was bad. Then, my sister, her boyfriend, and I went to Barnes & Noble, so I could purchase the 4th book of Cirque Du Freak! :D I had finished the 3rd earlier today, and was anxious to continue! I also purchased a sketchbook with a beautiful Japanese wave print on the spiral hard covers! I've wanted it for so long! I'm very happy :)