I Slept With My Sister Again - Does That Sound Dirty?

I woke up to the aching of my legs this morning. The entire day, I could not walk comfortably or in a straight line at least once. I'm not giving in to any weaknesses nor am I whining - I'm just saying. Anyways, I've continued my streak of waking up any time around noon and had breakfast. At first, I was offered a "Filipino Breakfast" which included some gulay with chicken. I had a little, since my Lola made it and I didn't want to be too disrespectful, but I eventually had a bowl of Smacks. As the day goes on, I went with the sister and her boyfriend, driving around. We went to Urban Outfitters and I, as excited as I was for the sale, left empty handed. Unfortunately, I was only working with 30 bucks and my main goal was to get a nice pair of sandals. I wanted to visit Roland today at work, but we never got to. It's the first day of summer and I didn't do much. Tomorrow calls for a party, so here we go. Photo is of what I've looked like for the past two days: lying on the bed on my sister's computer.

"I Can't Believe I Did It"

The first lap was a warm up. We walked through the shortcut just to get a taste of it. Second lap, we hopped right into a jog around the entire circular route of Branch Brook Park. Goodness, those swerves and turns seemed never ending. Past the half way point, I began to think to much. I wanted to stop, out of free will, at some points. The pain in my sides were very subtle and never any different as it were minutes before. I constantly reminded myself, "If it hurts the same as it did when we first started, then what's the point of stopping now?" This morning finally taught me a better example of Nike's motto, "Just Do It" Sometimes, I thought too hard, but it was pointless. I was only holding myself back. Before weaknesses could get the best of me, I was back at our starting point of my sister's boyfriend's car. I even pushed myself to do a little circle around the car before stopping - I was so proud of myself. I got through the entire route without stopping. When I stopped though, my legs almost collapsed in. Finally, I took a warm-down walk around the shortcut with the sister. We actually had good conversation this morning, discussing school and other matters. I came home, took a shower and had breakfast. For the rest of the day, I found myself in a car with my brother driving to Philly for business matters. Bored and unwilling to stay at home with creepy crawlers, I tagged along. It was fun for a good portion, finding ourselves in settings from I Am Legend. Cons solely involved getting lost and my brother;s GPS being of no help at all, with such a lag. Today was good and I'm proud of what I did this morning. Now to do it again tomorrow - maybe. Photo is of a familiar setting which was also nearby the part of the movie where Sam runs into the dark building.

"That's Totally The Wrong Hole, Man!"

How am I supposed to come terms with the fact that I just want you all to myself? More or less, the question is how do I deal? Today was pretty exciting for the most part, but as soon as it hit the point where I was sitting alone in front of the HS for 15 minutes , I was depressed. It was so great how the two of you bonded so well, it was pretty damned amazing.. but then it got to this point where live couldl've paused in a midst of a laugh and I could have been cropped out of the picture and it just wouldn't have made a difference. Sitting alone waiting for a ride made me tear up at the terrible thought : the day you may come to finally become bored of me and realize I'm not all that interesting. It makes me shit bricks.. I really odon't want to be proven right.. Photo 's of whatever I upload lol

Everyday, Actually

I can easily use the phrase "Of all days" , but I technically mean every day. Of all days, I wish I could've been with you today. Affection came a little late today, about 15 minutes before I had to run practice. Part of me just wanted to be like "Fack this, let's get out of here!" I didn't want to stray away from your tight grip, but I had to run today's practice with Jaelynn. I ended it early because it's just too pointless to stay until 5:30PM, not really doing anything. Only a few girls were there. I don't know..I just keep thinking back on today and keep wishing I had spent it with you..if it doesn't snow tomorrow, I'm praying I get the chance to do so. Photo's of Rey being a bum :)

Rookies Love Basics, Don't They?

Welcome to the first day of week 2 of Band Camp! -cheers- So it was a Monday, and I was still iffy with breathing. I was kind of worried that morning because as I got ready to go downstairs short breaths started to attack. As I had previously read online, I took the time to take as deep breaths as I could through my nose and slowly blow out through my mouth - like a trumpet. Great, I was a trumpeteer. I might as well go join the section. So we picked up Regina and Jon and got to the high school. I almost thought we were going to be late because of the BMW that was driving in front of us. I can't put it together how someone owns a nice car and decides to drive as slow as a senior citizen. Strangely, the BMW pulled up to the hs as well and guess who pops out? The one and only Mike Laboy. Haha..we came out of the car and thanked him for going 5 mph and stopping in the middle of the street at a stop sign. So we got inside and I told Shannon about the weekend and I had no guarantees for today.

Today's practice was a lucky one. The guard stayed in sectionals about the whole time just outside of the highschool. The band stayed inside for full ensemble while we did basics for the longest while. I counted as loud as my lungs allowed me to, until gasping for air started. Our rookies need the help of some kind of miracle. The guard earned themself a lap for not listening to directions and just failing. I asked Shannon if I could not run it, for obvious reasons. Later, the rookies pulled another one. They couldn't hold one damned count at a good angle, so we stayed there for EVER. Thanks rookies. You have a long way to go.

Oh, so I definitely forgot to put the second half of that day! After 6-8PM practice, I went with Shannon, Fabi, Jae, Momma 2, and Kevin to AC Moore. We were to buy blank yellow t-shirts and fabric paint for the Band Picnic. Its a bit of a band camp tradition where each section has matching shorts and t-shirts. It was a little crazy counting about 20 shirts to purchase and making sure we had the right sizes. We also stopped by the ACME store to get some chips and soda for tomorrow's guard pool party :)

Still Not Up To Par

This day was a continuation of Saturday's feeling of death approaching. The only word that could symbolize this day was sleep. Actually, I slept until about 12 noon. I was actually feeling a lot better, under the fact that I could breathe a bit better. It took me a while to realize that I needed to arrange the pillows in an upright position and that that's how I was supposed to sleep. It was weird at first- sleeping while sitting up, but I got used to it.. I would turn off the lights after I took my meds, lay in bed, sit there with my hands folded, and stare into the darkness until sleep came. It wasn't too bad because I almost immediately fell asleep.

Around noon, I got bored of sleeping all day and decided to get up and on Facebook. As sick as I would be, I still find my way to get onto a computer and update my status. I still thought about the next day and how that would turn out. I had gotten a bit better, but I wasn't up to par. Running was not an option for me because I knew my body well enough to acknowledge the stupid things to be doing in this state. It would only make it worse. So I prayed to God we wouldn't have to run.