Believing That Gut Feeling Again

I'm not sure how much truth is in the feelings I felt today, and I'm a little embarrassed to post it. I would like to believe that we are finally happy. I know that a streak of three days of nothing but happiness, can't exactly prove me right, but I couldn't help but indulge in our happiness.

This morning went pretty well, as far as rehearsal goes. We started learning work, which meant we are starting to turn the notch up for the rookies. Even with that, everyone was learning work at a decent pace, especially for the first day. I'm pretty confident with where we are right now. We only have 2 new girls. Jaelynn came by with Erik to visit, and it was really nice seeing her in that environment again.. I wish things weren't the way they were, but I can only do so much and keep moving. I just might try again, but I don't want to ride up her butt about rejoining. So maybe just once more. After rehearsal, I hit up the lover because I have been dying to see him. Apparently, the maid was still home and finding reasons to stay longer. While waiting, I made my way to 7-11 where I bought myself a slurpee and two taquitos. Finally, when I was able to go over his hosue when the coast was clear, I have him one taquito and most of the slurpee. [it started to melt!] Minus a scare in the form of a knocking at the door WHICH TURNED OUT TO BE FRANCIS, everything in this day had my mind and heart in the state on being content. Three days of this and I don't know whether or not to believe my gut feeling. Photo is of another flag design I tried to make for our guard this morning. It's crap, I know.

The Pointless 4

This morning I felt so upset about the day to come. Now, at 9:30PM I can look back at it and just think.. "wtf?" We were told that the guard would be rehearsing with the band from 4-6PM and THEN 6-8PM with PJ. I was absolutely heart broken; I didn't think I would survive the day. On top of that, I knew that I had some club meetings to attend. Knowing that I had 4 horus of practice ahead of me, all I wanted to do was relax. As it turns out, the four hours were full of bullshiz. It was not necessary for the guard to be with the band because all they did was go over 4 sets of work. Then, 6-8PM practice was worse. >.> We didn't do squat, it was dark, and I just wanted to go home. To most we did was change a bit of drill. Me and Jaelynn half-assed our way through practice all day. It was great. -sigh-

Journey of the Hat

As promised, I wore my hamster hat today with Jacob and his beaver hat. I wore it to school and met up with the beaver. It is absolutely impossible to look at the hats and not say they're cute! On the other hand, it does look a bit cheesy when we stand next to eachother and wear them. But I really don't care about how cheesy we may look because I'm already the biggest cheese/cornball he's probably ever met. >_>

Coming home from practice tonight, I felt a bit worn out. Throwing myself on the couch is basically my body screaming to relax. I get really comfy and begin to text Jacob. My eyes grow heavier by the minute, but I force myself to stay up. I want to stay up with you as much as my body allows, but it doesn't always get there. D: Truly, it's all out of love, but I guess my biggest mistake is forming from my hardest effort. I'm really trying to cure this "disease" so we can both get in our last "I love you"s before our eyelids fall closed and dream. :) I'll get there; don't you worry.

Nah-shuh-nahlls, baby!

So I really can't believe that I got through today's rehearsal. 9AM-5PM is a pretty long time period! It's such a good feeling to know that your whole band is in a good spot for Nationals tomorrow. :D I want to dominate, and simply do the best we can give to an entire stadium. I think something that pulled me through today was the lovely hour 45 minutes from 12PM-12:45PM of being with you for lunch. Going to 7-11 for lunch is something I have never done, so you're my first. LOL. This is great haha. You're slurpee still looked like poop, btw. The taquito on the other hand, not so bad.. my domo cup was pretty amazing, if I may add :D

In Centuries

Today felt like the last day that I was going to see you in centuries. I really wanted to spend as much time as possible with you since I won't be coming back from Nationals on Saturday. I may be exaggerating with the whole "century" thing, but its okay. :D I was late to sectionals today, getting caught up in time with you. I can't say that I regret doing so; I rather would have stayed in the staircase with you.

So I can't really say anything eventful happened tonight because the event fell asleep. When I came home from practice, I texted him and laid down to relax and wait for a reply. About an hour later, curious, I texted him again to figure out where he was. Within intervals of maybe 45 minutes, I closed my eyes, napped, woke up, checked my phone to check for a reply, and closed my eyes again. I think that possibly around 9, I finally fell asleep for the night. I can't get mad about it at all either because I did the exact same thing a few days prior. haha.

Pour Pour Pour

Woooot! Who the hell doesn't love the rain!? Actually, it was wasn't raining today at all! haha This morning, I woke up dreading the 10AM-6PM practice that awaited us all, today. To look on back on it now, I think today was crazily fun. But to ask me to do it again is a different story. For most of practice, the guard was idle, in their own world. It really isn't much fun when the band gets all of the attention, reworking sets and learning new drill. To be honest, much of the guard would prefer working our butts off in the rain in opposed to just standing in it. [On second thought, I actually do enjoy doing nothing!] The rain didn't really bother me at all..it only did when we came inside for lunch and I observed the damage! Soaked shoes/socks mixed with some good ol' mud, wet shorts and leggings, and wet tops for the win! At the end of the day, we did a full run through in the POURING rain. It was pure, utter fun- even though we all slipped around the mud and fell into puddles! I hope we do good tomorrow!! >.<

Homecoming

Homecoming was tonight, but I didn't go. A lot of us thought it would be a failure, which I heard from some people that it was. I really didn't feel like going right after two hours of rehearsal, anyways. I was bummed out and my body was yearning for a shower. Good god, I think I have too much homework for my own good, too! I'm such a lazy sophmore. :D I'm on the phone with Jacob right now and I was trying to ask him to help me write this, and he's doing a great job just reading through old posts and not talking. XD thanks. Uhh..as for the pic I'm going to post, we had a lab in Chem where we were mixing acids and bases.. and things were exploding all over the place! XD it was pretty damned cool.

JACOB. DON'T WORRY ABOUT THESE. lol

Weather Denied Us A Better Day

I'm really learning to love Fridays. Weather denied us a better day, but I'm very content with how today was. Having somewhat an hour or so is something I'm still grateful for. Practice tonight wasn't too bad either. Neither of our instructors came until 6:30PM. The first one who came is too lazy to even clap her hands to keep tempo, so the period that she ran practice was not even legitimate. When PJ came, practice just got a little bit more serious, but overall rehearsal went by pretty fast. I was glad to come home and finally relax. Though I have a competition tomorrow, I can finally drop every tension and take in some deep breaths.