Live By Quotation

"I want to be able to keep you -us- as happy as we were when you first asked me out"

I never want to be the one to upset you and ruin a day.. But I did also promise to always be open with how I feel, despite how minute or grand the emotion turns out to be. My promise has worked out for better and for worse in separate occasions. Today just upset me so much. I haven't exactly told you in person, but you will probably read this.. Well I was so upset because last week was by far one of the worst weeks. I wanted last week to end so badly because I wanted to forget it a look forward to a better week: this week. I was pulled so far aback from my optimism this afternoon that I just became a bitter person. All I want to do is relax with you alone for a given hour or so. I haven't really been given that opportunity except Friday.. I am stil waiting for that day's opportunity where I get to just lay with you and listen to our breathing and heartbeats. I am technically still upset, but I really want to live up to the quote. I am going to try harder to look on the brighter side of things. You have taken over my heart and priorities. Your happiness is mine, too and I want to maintain stability there. How you have been dealing with me for 5 months - I do not know. I just know that I never want to imagine a life without you. Photo is of the Target Bunny beause I went there tonight. haha

Sure, Let's Go With That.

Whoa..this is my 180th post. dang. Today was wierd. I'm such an indecisive person. It's either that, or I can't read my own emotions. For a split second I began to think too hard and bam! There I was - distraught. ah, and for 4 months of happiness, there's also been this annoying fringe that dangled off for the whole time being. Don't complain for the obvious. Move on with life, geez. Sure, I'm bitter, let's go with that. Working towards friends is so much stress. Photo represents nothing. I had no picture of anything special today.

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Toothaches are a bitch. I hate sewing. Avatar is a really good series. My vacation has been so goddamned monotonous