HOBY Weekend, Here I Come!

Well, that was quite a difficult night. So tonight has consisted of packing/procrastinating for the HOBY Leadership Seminar I'm going to tomorrow. I mean hey, taking my sweeeet time is how I do it! I know that it was out of her best intentions to make sure I'm prepared, but telling me to bring this and that or asking if I brought this or why I haven't or won't bring this gets pretty annoying. It was at the point where I felt like I couldn't pack myself because I couldn't concentrate.Today was the end of my stressing this week, although I know it starts back up as soon as I get home on Sunday. I've looked up the Facebook group for this organization, and honestly, it looks pretty fun! The people look chill, though I am well aware the same, exact people won't be there this weekend. I set a goal for myself to be outgoing this weekend. I can't be afraid to publicly speak because the for the rest of my life, no matter what career I pursue, it will be a vital ability. Photo is of me in the fitting room. I got that dress :D Hrmm.. I might be MIA for the weekend with posts considering the seminar and no wifi.. haha.

My Normal

My voice was completely shot today. All throughout school, I refused to talk and reverted to just sitting there without a word. When I tried to speak, my words came out in a tone that was too high to even be noticed. Trying to be louder is just a silly option. I 've gone through so many remedies in the past two days, and my voice has only gotten slightly better. I have drank many warm cups of ginger-ale, gargled vinegar, water, and salt, taken a nebulizer, and eaten cough drops. I really don't feel sick at all; sometimes I forgot that I have no voice. So when I open my mouth to speak, I believe that it will be okay. In reality, my voice barely makes it out with a squeek. Eh. I just want to sound my normal again. -.-'

Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek

So there was this one point last year where my mom's voice was completely shot..she couldn't talk at all! and when she did, it was high-pitched, loud, and squeeky, and annoying. Wellllll *drumroll* ...I'm her now. >.> My voice, as of right now, is absolutely, completely shot. Every word that attempts to come out of my mouth hits a high note and stays there until I close my mouth again. Earlier this morning, I just thought it was funny because I could still kind of talk. Now, I just want to rip my voicebox out. I'm not sure how I got this way. For the past few days, I've been waking up with a raspy voice, but it would eventually go away. I would say it's because I cheered so much at All-States the night before, but I didn't even cheer that much. This morning, I woke up and came to the high school for a damned parade we had to do. Everyone I talked to thought my voice was horrible; I even got told to shut up and just stop talking a couple times. haha. I just gargled a glass of warm water, vinegar, and salt, advised by the Reyeses. I also drank two glasses of warm ginger ale. Eh. I sound like a 50-year-old smoker. I want my normal voice back! lol Look- Jaelynn's puppy pooped in front of us, in her room. eww.. lol and yes, there is a bathroom pad for that purpose.